JUST DISCHARGED FROM WARD... aGaIn!!!

Assalamualaikum...

As the title of my blog mentioned... I just discharged from Antenatal Ward, Hospital Raja Perempuan Zainab II, Kota Bharu (HRPZII). I was admitted there yesterday. I was well when I started off the day by going to the hospital to work. For this week, I was supposed to be in charge in Ward 15, a passive ward, full of patients with HIV, Tuberculosis, Diabetic Control and Renal failures on regular hemodialysis basis. Not a busy ward... Alhamdulillah. Early morning, I went to join the talk on medicolegal. Then, I did round in the ward for 1 hour. After that, I went to the Clinic to see patient to be seen as outpatients.

After seeing 2nd patient, I felt my tummy growling! Felt like having severe diarrhea. It was true when I went to the toilet and I was purging watery stools!!! 3 days prior to yesterday, last Sunday I already had similar symptoms. But it was more of food poisoning where I vomited and had loose stools. Emcee 1 day while my husband was oncall... Anyways, I was in the toilet for almost 2 hours yesterday. Purging diarrhea and watery stools until feeling nothing to come out! But the tummy was so painful!!! I couldn't walk properly for having such painful colicky abdomen...

I sms my husband and told him about my problem. He asked me to come out from the toilet. He was oncall again yesterday. When he saw me, he said we better go to the Emergency and get another emcee. We went to Emergency, luckily it was in front and across the road from the Clinic. When I reached there, the MA asked me to go to the Yellow Zone. The HOD of Emergency department was there! Argghh... malunye! He asked what was wrong and I told him. He asked whether I was having any contraction pain??? Well, I didn't think of that but more concerned about my loose stools!! Then, when I was examined, he said that I was having contraction pain! What??? Nak beranak dah ke aku??? Baru 35 minggu!!!

My husband set line for me and then, the HOD arranged for an ambulance to send me to the labour room. It was the first time I was a patient and rode in an ambulance! hehe. I was examined by my juniors colleague and told me that my os was closed but since I was having contraction, they admitted me to the labor room, the same room I last admitted... and I was on regular painkiller injections which made me sleep the whole time. Initially I was having contraction pain 2 in every 10 minutes. Later on yesterday night, the pain reduced to 1 in 10 minutes and finally, irregular contractions. My baby was well and active all the time in the ward, Alhamdulillah.

They said that since I had already completed Dexamethasone injection (to mature my baby's lungs) during my last admission and my baby's estimated weight was 2.6kg during my last ultrasound scan, they allowed labour if it was progressing! I was sleepy after given the injections but still prayed and hoped may Allah give me what's best for me and my baby... I was checking whether I had other signs of labour but since the contraction was reducing, I was not worried so much!

Hmmm, my Baby Caliph is really playful said my aunt! :) Yesterday I was in the labour room by myself. My husband was oncall. He wanted to be there with me, but we had no choice. Both of us were sad... but Allah knew what was bst for us both. Alhamdulillah, the nurses were very nice to me. I was happy in the labour room not like last time. :) Syukur, Alhamdulillah, my husband's oncall last night was not so bad. Yupp... we wanted to be together, but we knew we just couldn't. :)

Abang, janganlah rasa bersalah lagi. Cukuplah dengan kata-kata Abang yang cukup membuatkan hati ini sungguh pilu dan terharu. "Kita asyik tolong patients, jaga patients, rawat patients, macam apa je, tapi bila bini sakit, kita nak jaga pun tak boleh". Bukan kita yang sengaja meminta semua benda ini berlaku semalam waktu Abang oncall. Tapi, syukurlah Allah sayangkan kita. Takde apa yang berlaku semalam pada kita berdua dan hari ini dah pun boleh keluar wad.:)

Ya Allah!
Kau letakkanku berada di antara 2 orang yang amat ku kasihi
Mereka berdua inginkan yang terbaik untukku
Mereka berdua ingin berada di sampingku ketika ku melahirkan anak dalam kandungan ini
Tunjukkanlah kepadaku apa yang harus ku lakukan
Tunjukkanlah kepada mereka berdua bahawa aku amat menyayangi mereka berdua yang amat sangat
Dan pastinya, ku inginkan mereka berdua di sampingku di saat-saat getir ketika melahirkan
Tapi, sekiranya salah seorang daripada mereka tiada di sampingku
Tunjukkanlah kepadanya bahawa kasihku, cintaku, sayangku padanya takkan pudar sama sekali
Kasih, cinta dan sayang yang telah Kau campakkan dalam hati ini
Biarlah ia bersemadi dalam hati, darah, dagingku selamanya hingga bertemu denganMu...
Ameen.