Assalamualaikum,
Oh
My! Looking at the last post?? SEPTEMBER 2012??
How
I have neglected my dearest blog…
So,
I guess, this post will be the first blog-post of this year 2013.
Thank
you to my husband for urging me to continue writing my personal blog.
Hmmm,
there’s so much to write in my personal blog actually…
But
I think, I need to write one story at a time in each post, la kan?
I
bloghopped before I start my blog-writing, just to read on other updates. And
reading my dear childhood-neighbour-friend on her loss made me want to share
about my loss as well.
On
January 5th, 2013, I was there lying down next to an ultrasound scan
in the labour room of the Hospital Putrajaya, waiting for the O&G
specialist to come down to scan me. I had fresh bleed earlier that day after 20
days of prolonged spotting little amount of menstrual bleed. Mak was there to
accompany me while my husband was in the car waiting with my 2 sleeping boys.
When
the specialist came, she asked my history and started to examine. She started
with abdominal examination and I couldn’t point the tenderest area over my
abdomen. Then, she did per-speculum examination and she said it could be
infection. After that, she proceeded with abdominal ultrasound and she said my
uterus was collapsed, meaning there’s no baby inside my womb to tell that I’m
aborting. When she scan using the
vaginal probe, I saw what she saw...
“Dup..Dup..Dup..Dup..”
There
it was…a heartbeat. The baby was outside my womb. It was inside my left
Fallopian tube. But, my left tube was perforated and the vaginal bleed was due
to the: Perforated Ectopic Pregnancy of the Left Fallopian Tube. Thus, I was planned
for the Emergency Laparoscopic Left Salphingectomy KIV Laparotomy that night.
But, it was delayed to the next morning due to other emergencies that night.
The
operation went smoothly but the post-op pain was undescribable. But, I was
discharged home on the January 8th, 2013.
That
moment Kak Aishah, when I saw there was a heartbeat, it would always make me back
in tears whenever I remember it. I had been waiting for my third baby… I miss
to be pregnant again and to cuddle a baby, wishing for a girl… :) But, Allah
Knows Best to Give the Best In the Best Time. InsyaAllah.
