The sad feeling of loosing the baby... will just comes back.
No specific time.
No specific reason.
No specific day. It's uncontrollable.
But I can still control the teary of eyes and feeling sad for too long.
If only you, my baby, get to be delivered next year 2016...
I would be able to carry you..
I would be able to kiss and hug you..
I would be able to smell you..
I would be able to breastfeed you..
I would be able to ask Huzaifah and Habib to take care of their baby sister or brother,
I would be able to take pictures with you..
I would be able to cherish the moments with you along with your Ayah, Abang Huzaifah, Abang Habib and the rest or Pasir Pekan's family and Rahim's Bunch family.
I miss you my dear little baby.
I wish you are still in my tummy. You would be 8 weeks by tomorrow and I would be able to see your little heart beat by ultrasound.
I will keep praying and make a lot of dua's for me to be strong and stronger day by day to overcome this sad feeling.
P/s: Having pain and looking at the scar are reminding of the painful memories of losing you, my little one. You were just 5 weeks old and I had to undergo a laporotomy that left me a big scar which looks like a caesar. Huhu. Please pray for Ummi yeah? Love you baby..
