SWITCH STRESS TO SWEAT!!!

Alhamdulillah, last week I had research methodology course for academic training at IIUM Gombak, It was really good in the sense of boosting up my motivation to write the thesis. One of the lectures mentioned to write in a journal or a blog. So, I am back to writing in the blog to record this last 1 and half years of my PhD Journey.. 

Since 1 month ago, to my surprise on my 36th birthday, I have started on exercising. Getting my body to work out, trying to achieve fit and healthy body. The main reason that I am doing the exercise is to release stress. I think I was not as stress as I am now. Meeting the deadlines for my progress report, repeating the labworks that I had done faults in my previous experiment, assisting MyLab grant, helping the kids to  do their homeworks.. And the list will just go on. So, before the stress gets over me, I am fighting the stress by doing squat, jumping jacks, be it cardio exercise or weight training. There's also a second aim actually... That is, I want to wear baju kurung that I bought at RM50! Hopefully I'll get the shape that I want and fit the baju kurung beautifully! Hewhew. 

Exercise makes me feel satisfied. Thanks to this Polar watch, a gift from my husband. Alhamdulillah. It gives me the feeling of satisfaction when I sweat a lot. It shows the data like heart rate and the calories burned. I like it, eventhough, wearing the belt around the chest (to detect the heart rate on the watch) is a bit uncomfortable. Perhaps, I'll ask my husband to buy a new Garmin watch for my next year birthday. Hehe

I also feel happy doing the exercise because I am doing it myself and for myself. Penat toksah kata, but, the result, insyaAllah we'll see this year's Raya! Yey! Dapat pakai baju raya.. 😂

Will continue writing insyaAllah. Not only Switch Stress to Sweat but, Forget Stress with Writing.. 😉

BELIEVE- WISH OR MUST?

Tiada usaha yang sia-sia

Tiada doa yang tidak Allah kabulkan

There is happy ending, if it doesn't end with happiness, then it is not the end. 

"Bahagia yang sedikit akan bertambah apabila dikongsi. Bahagia yang dikongsi tidak akan berkurang malah akan bertambah.  

Percayalah... menyalakan lilin orang lain tidak akan mengurang cahaya lilin mu tetapi kita akan mendapat lebih banyak cahaya!" -Pahrol Mohd Juoi-

HELP ME TO SMILE

Can't hold on my tears anymore. 

Just have to let it go, trickling down my face all over.. Sob sob.. 

My husband said to me when I broke the news that the UPT was positive, he said that I got pregnant because I gave food and being nice to the Kamikaze cat behind our house. We also brought him to the clinic to treat his illness.

But, I guess, I was not good enough, be it to the cat, to my husband, to my children, to my mother in law and sister in laws who are staying with us. I have a lot of sins and just that reason, makes me nobody who deserve to have whatever wishes and du'a I have made... 

Ya Rabb! Please give me SABR. 

Please forgive me all my sins.

Please accept my solat, my ibadah. 

Please let me pass my PhD, the only thing, the only du'a that I wish you to grant me, 

Because I don't think I can bare any of Your big tests anymore...

Sob sob sob sob..

Make me a strong person Ya Allah..

Help me to be patient Ya Allah..

Please Ya Allah.. Ya Rahmaan Ya Raheem.. 

Sob sob.. Sob sob.. 

SSI - smile senyum ibtisam

It's been 2 weeks and I am still not fully recovered from the pain at the scar. I realise it during and after I cooked fried macaroni this morning. I thought that I am fully healed because, based on my experience, the laparoscopic operation pain lasted for 2 weeks and I was fully recovered. But, this time round, the recovery process is taking longer than I thought. 

I googled for the post laparotomy advices  and precautiouns. I find that this link gives a very good guideline for me. http://www.qegateshead.nhs.uk/sites/default/files/users/user1/leaflets/IL337%20Discharge%20advice%20following%20laparotomy.pdf. InsyaAllah, I am now more prepared to make myself "pantang" for 6 weeks to be back to normal again. 

In the meantime, I aim to finish all the lessons for Typing Tutor as I failed to finish it before. I hope to be able to type with 10 fingers on my laptop when I write my thesis later. Here's a tip from my husband that I must repeat typing the same lesson for 40 times and only then to move to the next lesson. That's the only way to really master the alphabets. Well, he mastered it in 1 month time. I hope to master it in 2 weeks time. May Allah grant my du'a. 

Stop complaining. Stop whining. Stop commenting. I don't like to listen to it. So, I must also stop it while talking to others. Sometimes, when I complaint to certain people, they just ignored. So, that's why I decided to be back blogging because here's the only place that I can record my complaints and nobody will complain about it. Right? Haha. (Am I becoming cuckoo erkkk??)

It's Jumu'ah! Yeay!!!!! 

My LITTLE CALIPHS ARE BIG BOYS ALREADY

I am so thankful to Allah for having these two little caliphs that had been cherishing my life for the past almost 9 years. Alhamdulillah, being at home makes me spend more time with Abang Huzaifah and Baby Habib. 

Since Huzaifah is having his final exam for standard 2, Umi is doing daily revision with Huzaifah. It is requested by Huzaifah. Umi is hoping and praying that Huzaifah will get number 1 in class. Amiiin. 

Habib is going to dance for his convocation. Need  to persuade him to go to school every morning. Huhu. Alhamdulillah, his Furqaan reading is getting better, now he's reading number 3. Umi aims for Habib to finish number 4 and 5 (if there's any) by end of next month. And hopefully by end of this year Habib will start reciting from the Quran. Ok Baby Habib?? ;) 

As for Huzaifah, let's aim to finish memorising juz'Amma ye? InsyaAllah, we can do it, ok Huzaifah? 

I love you both so much! *muahs*