UNDIAGNOSED SYNDROME

Assalamualaikum...

Been having this weird uncomfortable feeling, unstable mood for the past 1 week. Dunno lah what syndrome got into me... Apa taknya, mood tak ok. Lepas tu, melepaskan bad mood tu dengan mengemas n menghias rumah, membasuh porch, basuh kereta. hehe. Habis bersih n lawa la rumah anak dara! :D Sat gi nak pi mop plaks... hehe... Apa2pun, there are few hypothesis I've made regarding my unstable undiagnosed syndrome... hehe

1. Sakit perempuan yang datang setiap bulan. So, hormon pun jadi tak stabil.
2. Ujian2 hidup adalah untuk mendekatkan diri pada Allah. Jadi bila nak dekat dengan Allah ni, memanglah banyak ujian. Kena banyak bersabar. Doa n Tawakkal.
3. Bila mood rasa tak stabil, rasa macam tak semangat. Last2, senang lah syaitan nak cucuk2 pikir yang bukan2. Last2, kena bo layan. Sebab selagi di layan perasaan ni, selagi tu keje tak jalan. :)

So finally, I made the decision x want to follow my unstable emotions anymore. Biaq pi dia la. Bila nak ternangis jerk, istighfar and doa...

:D

Apesal ntah nak citer dalam blog. Semalam dah tulis dah kat dalam MR.D... tapi tak berani tulis panjang2 sebab sat gi nak bakar diari tu tak tahu nak bakar kat mana. hehe.

Mak and Nenek came just now. Singgah kat Melaka on the way to JB. Habis borong kat restoran Desa Baru untuk lunch. Hampir semua lauk mak beli. Tapi, diorang kata murah sebab 15 ringgit je. Adalah nak dekat 10 lauk kut. Tapi semua sket2 la. :D Lawak toi la. Nak bagi anak2 makan... They made my day... Alhamdulillah.

So far went to the wards. Surgical n Medical. Saw a lot of cases. Petang, Dr Padmaraj have special revision classes for the refreshers. So nice of him. Hope there'll be my chance to say, THANK YOU to Dr. Padmaraj, after I have passed my exams. Ameen. Other than the special classes, we went to the ward on our own. Hmm... macam kena jadi class representative. :D Semua kita kena plan. Well, I don't mind doing all that, tapi, masa bad mood hari tuh, kesian jugak kat budak2 yang kena sound. Sorry lah ye! Sekali, budak kena marah tu kata, dia tak terasa pun. Cuma dia nasihat,
"Eventhough I know my questions are simple and irritating, but thank you for your answers. Believe me when I said that, If you help your friends to pass the exams, you will feel good when you passed your exams, knowing that you've helped your friends."

Kui kui kui... Kan dah kena sebijik! :D

Oklah. Saja melepaskan rasa... Read Novel RINDU YANG PERGI - Fazie Hanna. Best! Kena dengan jiwa. Patient with Acute Intermittent Porphyria complicated with Multiple Myeloma. Married to an irresponsible husband. Didn't have any children. After divorced, married to a very caring doctor with a son. The doctor n son met with an accident and died. Finally, she passed away and donated her cornea to a blind lady.

While reading the novel, banyak kata2 semangat, sabar dengan ujian, You are the best because you are the chosen one... and so many kata2 yang suruh doa n tawakkal pada Allah. Alhamdulillah. Syukur Ya Allah! :)

OK OK... Final OK! Gotta go. Alhamdulillah, petang ni ada usrah dengan Dr. Mai. Esok dengan Ustaz. sambung bab munakahat! :D hehehe

Ilal liqa' wa ma'assalamah!