Thursday, March 29, 2007

EMOTINALLY SICK

Assalamualaikum,

Alhamdulillah, today is my 3rd day of MCs. InsyaAllah, I have just one more day to relax before I start my oncall this Saturday... Actually, I'm scared to start working and to do my oncall. I'm still having on and off pain over my abdomen. Sometimes, feeling some kind of contraction pain, however I just ignored it because... it will just turned out to be Braxton Hicks, my final diagnosis during my admission at the hospital... Nothing can be done...

There were sad events when I was admitted to the hospital, however I just shared it with my husband. So many tears dropped while I was there... But I guess, it's normal for a patient to feel that way??? I'm not sure. But that was the first time that I became a patient. Before this, I was the doctor treating the patients... Anyways, it was not a good experience at all.. Initially I wanted to make complaints and asked for my rights as a patient, as a doctor, as a Malaysian??? But then, the sad events made me realise... maybe Allah wanted to show to me how patients felt when I mistreated them all this while... :(

Well, just pouring out a little here... No offense to anybody. But in any ways, I'm glad that I have my husband to be with me all the time. Alhamdulillah... I'm not sure how am I going to live without him being around... I miss him when he's away to work... Just can't be apart from him even for just a minute. Maybe this is the hikmah and the secret of "Cinta lepas kawin.. ;) " Thank you Allah for this very special gift... :)

My husband dreamt of me during my stay at the hospital...
He dreamt that I went away and missing... He tried to search for me but failed for so many times... He tried to look for me but I was nowhere...
He said he didn't like the dream. :)
Well, I told him that it was just a dream and I'm still here next to him. But, if it's taqdir that we are going to be separated by life and death soon, then, I prayed that we will meet again in the Heaven as husband and wife forever, Ameen. (I'm emotinally sick! :p)

Tuesday, March 27, 2007

INDUKSI & WARDED

Assalamualaikum...

KURSUS INDUKSI
It had been a long time since I written in this blog. Well, I was away for my Kursus Induksi at Keluang Beach Resort for 2 weeks.. Went there on the 7th March till 22nd March. It was a good experience. Well, apart from the boring lectures, I got to know good friends from Kota Bharu and Kuala Terengganu... We shared a lot of things and since our group was small, we get to know each other quite fast...

BABY INDUKSI
Anyways, hot news from Induksi... We had a baby borned on our 9th day staying at Induksi. My friend from Hosp. Raja Perempuan Zainab II, Kota Bharu went to Induski when she was already term, 37 weeks... At 39 weeks on the dot, she was in labor and delivered baby girl, 3.1kg at HRPZII, Kota Bharu. Alhamdulillah... Another pregnant mother was 38 weeks. Alhamdulillah, she didn't deliver during the kursus. And as for me, Alhamdulillah, Baby Caliph had great time eating hotel foods!!! hehe. And also, Baby Caliph was responding more to the lectures and noise. I could see waves on my tummy when I lie down on the bed... ;)

CHEEZE 1st PRIZE
On the 20th March, we had Malam Kebudayaan. 36 of us were divided into 4 groups. Cheeze, Synergy, Voice, United. I was in Cheeze group. We had Boria Induksi for our performance. We got 1st prize!!! Taraaa! With 2 Mak Buyungs in the group, we made it to be at 1st prize! hehe. Mak buyungs were in charged to play the kompang/gendang/percussion. Whatever you want to call it! hehe. The other group members had to move around and sing the song. By the time they finished singing, they all looked exhausted. But me?? Well, after the performance, I went to take the roasted crabs and eat while watching the other performances. The best part that night was that, there was an event for "Cabutan Bertuah". I was the last one to be called out... and I got a very special prize! That is.... "Quack Quack Duck". Everybody wanted to have my gift... hehe. Some of them got a mask, milk bottle and all sorts of toys for small children. hehe. It was quite fun...

EXAM
On the 22nd March, it was time for our exams. Luckily we got some hints that night so we studied a little, not much. Just hope to pass the exam. This exam is smportant for us for our confirmation as a practitioner in Malaysia... Hope to get it sooon... Ameen.

ONCALL
23rd March, I had to start working and oncall that night. Alhamdulillah, it was a good oncall night. There were 4 admisssions and all patients were stable in the ward. I slept well that night... I asked my husband to teach me how to insert CVP... Peculiar thing happened to me that night was that, there was a patient asking me, "Doktor dah nak dekat bersalin ke?" I was quite touched by that question... I'm only 7 months pregnant and suddenly, why did she come up with that remark? My tummy is not that big...

The next day, we at medical posting had to go round the ward. I took all the blood investigations and did round at my part. Then, helped one of the HO to do peritoneal dialysis. After that, my husband and I went to KB Mall to buy some things. 2 weeks away from home, nothing's at home... We had lunch and then we buy some groceries.. Later on, we bumped into AOWA's saleswoman. She said the same peculiar thing to me that is, "Puan dah nak beranak ke?"

ADMITTED TO HOSPITAL
Well, those 2 people actually were giving me some signs I guess??? On Sunday morning I was having painful stomachache. Feeling nausea, urge to pass stools... and having regular contractions on my tummy. I was prepared to go to work by that time, at 7:30am. But my husband asked me to wait first. Then, the pain became more painful. So, he said not to work and we went to labor room after I had some rest. I was having premature contractions at 27 weeks and 6 days!!!

I was quite ok with that fact... But my husband was more worried than me. :) He had to work that evening but he managed to take Emergency Leave that day. Alhamdulillah, he was there with me in the labor room all the time. I was having contractions 1 in 10 minutes lasting about 5-10 seconds. So, they given me IM injection at my buttocks. Painkiller and also, Dexamethasone, that is a medication to mature my baby's lungs... Baby Caliph was so active.. Alhamdulillah, after 2 days of observation at the labor room, the contractions faded and I was discharged to the ward. At labor room, my husband was sleeping on the floor to accompany me...
Anyways, I'm at home now. 3 days of MC. Hopefully the contractions stops... I talked to so many people, and I got emotionally touched... :) Well, what to do.. I was sick physically and also emotionally.

"Thank you abang for being there when I needed you most!"
And as for Baby Caliph, "Duduk diam diam sikit sayang. Jangan lasak sangat. Umi sakit perut. Kesiankan umi ye..."

Got to go... Still having on and off pain... Baby Caliph nak suruh Umi dia tido sokmo! ;) Doakan kami berdua semua orang... ;)

Friday, March 16, 2007

Monday, March 05, 2007

FIRST DAY AT MEDICAL

Assalamualaikum,

Today was my first day being in Medical posting... I was asked to become a HO not an MO. Had to fill up logbook some more... But when I clarified with the office, they won't give me the logbook because I already submitted my 3 logbooks to be evaluated by the MMC. So, I had to tag as HO from 8am until 10pm. It was really tiring!!! Just imagine me pregnant 25 weeks and was already working as MO had to become Ho again!!! "Kerja kuli batak" as our DG said...

Anyways, I don't mind the work because there are still a lot of things for me to learn... To study how to manage patients in the ward... since I'm not used to be in those wards before... So, Alhamdulillah. I hope I'll learn a lot from the experience... However, it'll be short tagging, only 3 days! Starting on 8th March, I won't be in the ward anymore for 2 weeks because I have to go Induksi for confirmation my doctor's license. So, just have to bare the suffers for these 3 days... After that 2 weeks suffers at Induksi... :)

My bodyaches so much! Bloodtaking, clerking new cases, doing rounds, doing the discharge summaries..., SUBHANALLAH! Only Allah knows how painful my joints and muscles... However, thank to Mak... She gave a good advise before I flew back to KB 2 days ago... That is:
"Ikhlaskan niat, niat nak tolong patients... and husnudzon pada Allah. InsyaAllah Allah will make it ease... " Ameen....

WALLAHUA'LAM
Just ate nasi goreng ayam and sarsi ais. Going to take a bath and sleep already...
Make du'a for me... :)

Sunday, March 04, 2007

MARCH HOLIDAY

Assalamualaikum...

Alhamdulillah, last Wednesday, we went back to KL for March... Actually, I got my 4 days holidays before I change posting to Medical Department. So decided to go back to KL for the last trip, insyaAllah...

Alhamdulillah, I had finished my posting at A & E... The last day I was at A & E, there was a kenduri held for those going away and March and February birthdays... I didn't know there was a kenduri for that. Just so happened that on that day I was woorking morning shift, so, suddenly they said there was Makan-Makan... I had to give a speech some more. Well, I was really not prepared... :) But anyhow, it was a good event. I got a frame and a mug... Thanks A & E staffs n bosses!! :)

InsyaAllah, starting tomorrow I'll be working at Medical which I'm not sure myself how I can get through Medical. But to think back that I have already completed 4 postings, insyaAllah, Medical will be justttt another posting that I will go through... If everybody can, why can't I??? However, bringing my Baby Caliph growing along while working is something that I have to adapt both to the environment and the hectics in the ward. InsyaAllah, one is put at a situation that he/she can handle, that's Allah promise... :)

Anyways, going back to KL was a wonderful ecperience... We went back with AirAsia as always... Actually, I wanted to ride the bus, but my hubby said that if we took the bus, then, I will be grumbling about backache and bodyache because of the long hours in the bus... So, we flew with the SKY BUS, AirAsia... :) We reached Cheras house at 1am on Thursday. Had to wait for my Ayah to pick us up from Port Dickson. We had late dinner. The next day, there was no electric in Bandar Tun Hussein Onn from 9am-5pm. All the shops were dark!!! hehe. So, we didn't know what to do, so we just slept...

During lunch time, I got to eat siput sedut!!! hehe. I told Mak that I wanted to eat the siput sedut. So, she asked Makcik to cook. But instead, we went to the nearest restaurant and bought the lemak cili padi siput sedut! It was very delicious, yum yum!!! :) In the evening, we went to Kajang and got our Kad Nikah. Later, went to HKL to get all my payslips since May 2006 until December 2006... hehe. Then, fetch Mak at Hotel Putra. It was already raining, but since my Mak was hungry we went to Kampung Baru and found a Nasi Bubur warung... The food was tasty and good and cheap!!! :) It was Thailand's dishes. There were like 9 small dishes, udang kering, ikan kering, sayur with tauhu goreng, ikan bilis goreng kerabu mangga and a few more dishes. We thought we wouldn't finish it, but we did!!! hehe.

Friday night, we went to visit the twins at their house. Had our dinner together. The twins were already asleep but since we were making so much noise, they woke up suddenly... :) On Friday, Mak was having her leave. So, early morning we went to Putrajaya Maybank. Then, went around Hospital Serdang, because maybe I'll be delivering my baby there... :) Then, we went to Jaya Jusco Cheras Selatan near our house at Balakong. Mak was hungry again. So, we had our lunch at Johny's. Another Thailand food. :) But I prefer the Nasi Bubur warung one.. if you are asking me...:) After lunch, we slept... That night, Ikram brought Nasi Arab with all the lauk. Mak cooked Ayam tikka! It was really good food! :) Everybody was around that night... :)

On Saturday, we went to our ex-Chinese neighbour at Shah Alam. Celebrating Chinese New Year. We had Nasi Beriani. Actually, my Abangalong was doing the landscape for them also... The landscape looks very nice... :) Later, we went back home and there were 2 more hours before we had to go back to KLIA and depart to Kota Bharu....

It was really good holiday for me and my hubby... Just that, my hubby had something else in his mind. For me, I really freed my mind and just enjoy the good food! Mak said that I should ate all the good food now because later on, after I give birth there'll be 2 months of pantang period where only ikan haruan, ikan bakar for me... hehe. Thanks a lot Mak!!! And now, enjoy the pics...