Monday, December 18, 2006



Today, went to antenatal checkup (ANC). Initially I went alone because my husband's oncall today at ONG's Operation Theatre. While waiting for my turn at the clinic, my husband called and said that he did not have any case yet. So, Alhamdulillah, my turn was not long after that. So, I called him and told that my turn will be the next patient. So, he came along. Happened that we both saw the same doctor that we have seen last ANC...

Nothing much... Just that today, I get to see my baby sleeping like the last time... But has grown so much bigger... My weight just increased by 0.5kg. hehe. Our little caliph was lying breech and my placenta is low lying... Please make doa, both baby and placenta will turn upside down... Ameen...

Oklah... Here's my USG picture...

Our Little Caliph
"I'm 14 weeks old Makcik2 & Pakcik2!!!"
Yesterday, we went to 2 WALIMAHS. One was at Machang. The other was at Pasir Hor.

Dr. Nasri & Dr. Nida
Nasri is my husband's best friend. Nida is my twin's cyber friend... hehe.

Dr. Adham & Dr. Wan
Adham was my husband's friend at HUKM. Adham was also my matrix matea at Kolej MARA Seremban.

To both couples, Selamat Pengantin Baru. Semuga Berbahagia selalu... :)

Friday, December 15, 2006

Tuesday, December 12, 2006



Alhamdulillah, hari ni ada peluang nak tulis blog. Semalam dah jalan2 blog. Post night shift. Alhamdulillah kes2 boleh handle dan tak berapa ramai... Malam ni tak tahu lagi, yet to be discovered! Syukur juga tak pening sangat... Baru je tido 1 jam siang ni... Jap lagi sambung tido balik lah selepas Zuhur... (tak tido sebab nak tengok tv punyer pasal, hehe)

Nak citer nye,
2 days ago, my father in law was getting sick at home. I didn't go to work that day coz it was off day for me. Since my youngest sister in law wanted to go to tuition for her next year SPM, so, I told her not to worry. After she goes, I'll be going to my in laws house... So, I arrived there around 1pm. My elder sister in law was already there and she said that our father in law also called "Wey" (stands for Wan) did not wake up after the small breakfast that he had that morning... He also did not urinate at all...

My assumption that time he was dehydrated. I checked his glucometer, it was normal. Then I checked his vital signs, it was OK. But when I asked him many questions, he refused to answer... What's wrong with Wey??? We tried to make him drink but he's too lethargic... My elder sister asked me to have my lunch first. I told my husband at work regarding the matter, and he said that he was having some bad feeling earlier...

Suddenly, while I was almost finishing my lunch, my elder sister said that,
"Wey suruh baca Yassin."
She was already in tears and calling all sedara mara to come and read Yassin... So, I took wudhu' and read the Yassin in front of him. Suddenly I was holding back my tears... To see him so restless and not talking, it's just not him... I was getting scared. People kept on coming. I managed to read twice complete Yassin and then, I received a sms,
"Amik abg sekarang." The room was quite packed with people, but I managed to go out and pick up my husband and also my sister in law from her tuition.

At the same time, I sms many people... Especially my in laws... Some were in KL. So, they told they can't come back on the same day... I told them to wait for my husband to see Wey first and then we let them know whether it's urgent for them to come back home...

When we reached home, there were so many people inside the room and the house. Some were leaving the house... Is it a sign that Wey is ok?
When we went inside the room, there was an IV drip bottle hanging. There was a kmapung doctor came and inserted the IV line and gave Wey the IV drip. My initial diagnosis was correct... Wey was dehydrated... After about 1/2 bottle finished, Wey looks more responsive. However, my husband looked at the IV line (where the jarum is), it was just a butterfly (small jarum). So, my husband siad that we better go to the hospital and get proper IV drip set. After Solat Asar, we went to A&E. Alhamdulillah, there were so many staffnurses and MAs that I know of and I requested for the IV drip set. Alhamdulillah, Allah made it easy for us to take it...

My husband suddenly popped out saying that
"Dulu, kawan abg bagi parentroVit kat patient." Then, I told him that,
"Memang dekat A&E, kalau tengok orang2 tua, nampak tak bermaya, cek jantung, yang lain2 semua normal, bagi je injection Vitamin BCo." So, my husband said why don't we take the Vitamin also and give to Wey? I said there's no problem because it's just a vitamin. (Staffnurse citer, patient yang tua kadang bagi Vit BCo, terus nak balik selalu nak makan nasi kat rumah. hehe)

Anyways, we reached home around 6:30pm. My husband inserted the IV branula (the proper jarum) and continued to him the fluids. We gave Wey 2 bottles of fluids and then we off it. After Maghrib, my husband made Wey sat, and Wey straight away wanted to eat rice... ;) Alhamdulillah...

Most of Wey's children are at home currently. Some of us who stays nearby, we stay at our house and let Wey's other children to stay at Wey's house. Wey's still cannot stand and walk... All his muscles are rigid... InsyaAllah we are bringing him to the Specialist Clinic tomorrow morning....

When I was the only one reading Yassin in front of Wey,
My heart was crying inside
I was so scared
Scared of loosing another of my beloved family members...

It reminded me of loosing my 2 beloved family
Loosing Nenek just before my Engagement
And loosing Tok Ayah just before my Wedding...
It was painful for me and Mak to face the fate
Since both events were supposed to be my happiest days
But both of us kept on saying,
"If Nenek was still alive..." "If Tok Ayah was still alive.."

I wish,
I also do'a,
And I pray...
Please Allah...
Please make all my beloved family members...
Will be there to be able to see my first baby...
It will be another happiest day in my life...
And I wish to share it with all of them at the same time...
Ameen Ya Allah...

Allah loves Nenek and Tok Ayah more than I do...
And that's why He took them away earlier...
Before they get to see me in my wedding dress
And before they get to know their new grandson in law
May Allah make them in peace always

Thursday, December 07, 2006



Alhamdulillah after my 2 night shifts, I got 4 days holidays. Both of us went back to KL last Friday in the morning. It was quite a journey since it had been a long time since I rode on the bus. Since the night was sleepless, so, both of us slept in the bus... However after the first bus stop, we had our lunch and pray Zuhr-Asr, I was having severe headache, nausea and feeling like vomiting... Some more, my bladder was very full... When we reached KL, it was JAM at the Bulatan Pahang... SubhanaLlah, masa tu Allah je yang tau betapa sakitnya kepala dan perut... I lost my watch also in the bus.. Sedihnya!!! It was the watch who had been with me since I was in matrix. Mak gave me hers because she got a new watch for herself during that time... Sedih betul!!! Alhamdulillah, masa wedding hari tu ada orang bagi watch, POLO... hehe

Alhamdulillah, Mak, Makcik, Ajin were all well. Sihat2 semuanya... Our twin nephews also were waiting for us at home... Abang and Adik dah besar! 2 different characters... and 2 different sizes. hehe. Abang is so charming. Adik is so pampered... Both of them really made us all laugh... Tak puas nak main dengan depa dua... Everybody kept on asking if their coming soon cousin will be a boy or a girl or twins??? hehe. No twins lah hopefully... Mana ummi nak jaga, anak2 ummi dengan abahnye lagi... Oncalls lagi??? Wuishhh... Superwoman, soon to be discovered.... :)

2 Disemeber 2006, cukuplah setahun Nenek pergi meninggalkan kami dan menemui Yang Maha Esa. Kami pergi melawat kubur arwah Nenek. Batu nisan belum lagi siap. Menantu Mak baca Yassin and then, we went back home. Before going to the Kubur, we went to PC fair at KLCC and then Kamal Bookstore. My brother yang beli byk barang. My husband, beli seguni buku kat Kamal Bookstore... (Bila nak study tu Abang? hehe)

Alhamdulillah, went to visit Atok at his house pagi Ahad... We had Nasi Lemak Makcik at Atok's house. Makcik's nasi lemak memang sedap tahap gaban!!! Memang dah jadi menu wajib kat rumah Mak untuk hari Ahad. :) My sedara were also there. So there were so much food at rumak Atok. We had a very heavy brunch. I was not feeling so well, my tummy growling... Makan banyak sangat and tak nak pergi buang... :( Mak, Makcik and Abang went out and cut the bushes, threw away all the died trees, died leaves... Kemas taman bunga arwah Nenek... I help a bit lah...

There was a beautiful black butterfly flying around us while we trimmed the trees... Mak said, probably I'm going to get a baby girl... :) It also could be, arwah Nenek is around and she's happy that her daughter and grandchildren helping to clean up the taman... WALLAHUA'LAM... :)

I received a call from my twin... hehe. My twin scolded me for not telling why I didn't let her know earlier that I was coming back to KL. Well, I thought I already told her/or in the blog earlier last month. hehe. Anyways, she was telling me that it's hectic to be working at A&E Hospital Selayang... Hmm, I really didn't know how to give her comment. I'm glad, bersyukur that I'm working at A&E HRPZII, KB. Comparatively, I should be grateful that I'm working at A&E in HRPZII, KB... We'll just have to wait for her stories in her blog soon... kan Maya? hehe

Ok la... That's all for now... Tata

Wednesday, November 29, 2006



Alhamdulillah, segala pujian kepada Allah SWT kerana memberi peluang untuk menulis blog hari ni... dan selawat dan salam buat junjungan Nabi Muhammad pembuka bicara... :)

Arteriovenous Malformation
Semalam kerja petang, that is from 3pm-10pm. Dalam pukul 9pm, there was a case...

19years old, Malay, man came with initial diagnosis of Prolonged Fever. The patient could't talk himself. He was drowsy and really not talking at all. I was quite scared!

What is going on with this young man???

So, called up the father... Upon asking, "Dia demam 2 hari. Batuk selsema. Demam biasa. Maghrib tadi pakcik kejutkan dia, dia bangun, tapi macam tak sedar. Tak boleh cakap." I asked whether had this happened before, he said No. Then, did he had any "nyetok" (sawan), he said No and No history of trauma...

What is going on???

So, I examined him... Called up his name. He woke up but he couldn't talk. He was just making sounds that it sounded like baby talk... So, I tried to ask him if he can lift his hands, his legs... Yup, he could do that... Obeying to my command... But his power of all his limbs, tangan dengan kaki keempat-empatnya, memang reduce power. Dia boleh angkat sahaja, tapi bila kita try resist, dia tak boleh... His reflexes (the thing doctor does when we hit the knee, and suddenlt the knee goes up) were all normal. His pupils were both reactive. GCS of 11/15.

Help me!!!

So, i asked my senior regarding this patient. I couldn't make up what was the diagnosis... So, he examined the patient again... he agreed with my findings... then, he looked at the patient's face. It looked like the face was asymmetrical. His mouth deviated to the left side, loss of the right nasolabial fold, and he couldn't really open his eyes...

So, my senior made the diagnosis that the patient had
It meant, patient had left sided stroke in the brain and maybe there was an abnormal artery-vein in his brain that is causing the problem. Arteriovenous Malformation happened in people when they fetuses... But at the age of teenagers, the risk of it getting bigger and rupture is very high, that what I understood from my senior...

What should we do?

The patient needed an urgent CT-Scan of the brain, because, if the vessel in the brain ruptured and needed surgical intervention, then we had to send the patient to HUSM bcoz there's no neurosurgeon at our hospital... So, I was also called into the CT-Scan room and the radiologist oncall showed me that there was LEFT MIDDLE CEREBRAL ARTERY RUPTURED ANEURYSM. That really made me chilling and shaking... It meant that the patient had a big artery called left middle cerebral artery and ruptured already. That's why he couldn't speak properly...

What should I tell the family?

I told my senior regarding the CT-Scan findings, then he said the patient needed to be send from Yellow Zone to Red Zone and I have to call Medical MO Oncall. So, first I had to tell the family first... his father was already crying in front of me...

"Pakcik, jangan risau sangat. Lepas scan tadi, memang nampak ada pendarahan dalam otak anak pakcik. Tu lah dia tak boleh nak cakap. Sekarang, anak pakcik kena tolak ke Zon Merah untuk pemerhatian yang lebih dekat. Nanti saya akan cakap dengan doktor perubatan. Doktor perubatan tu mungkin akan hantar anak pakcik ke HUSM sebab kat sini, pakar otak takde. Nanti dia akan jumpa dengan anak pakcik. Lepas tu dia akan bagitau perkembangan seterusnya tentang anak pakcik, ok?"

Anak2 Pakcik yang lain ada kat situ cakap diorang faham. Tapi, Pakcik... he was holding back his tears...

It was already 10pm. The people for night shift were already there, and my husband was already waiting for me... But I had to call and let Medical MO know about this patient. So, after a while, Medical MO called and after I told him, I went back.... My husband asked,
"Busy ke?" Then, I started telling my story....He said,
"Kan best duduk A&E? Kes2 yang jarang2 jumpa boleh jumpa kat sini? Abang pun tak pernah jumpa kes macam tu."

I couldn't sleep last night... Thinking, my senior was so good at making the diagnosis... If I was alone, I really didn't know what to do.... Really....

Thanks Allah for this great opputunity to learn!!!!

After work, my husband didn't have his dinner yet and I didn't cook yesterday bcoz I was having diarrhea... So, we went to this famous place near HUSM and ate Nasi Kukus. I was very delicious but I was too tired to eat. But the drink... Fresh Orange Juice was good! :) It reminded me the place where we always went when we were in Melaka... Salam Sayang ke??? Tak ingat dah nama tempat tu. Ala... Yang gelas air jus dia besar macam jag! hehe...

Yup... The baby inside me is getting older each day and next Monday, he/she's going to be 3 months old... :) My husband dreamt that we had twin, a girl and a boy... So, he decided that next visit to ONG Clinic, we ought to do another ultrasound scan to reconfirm it again... hehe.

Well, actually when my sister-in-law was pregnant, when she went to do the 1st ultrasound scan, my brother saw another sac and he asked the doctor what was that... The doctor couldn't tell him. When they did another scan few months later, they saw there were 2 heart beating... hehe...

You never know, since Ayah said, "Ayah ingat semua keturunan Ayah akan dapat twin." hehe

Night shift tonight and tomorrow night... Takut.... :( Doa sokmo...

Saturday, November 25, 2006



Tetiap hari ada je masa nak tulis blog. Sampai dah takde cerita nak cerita dah pun! Suami el cakap, cerita pasal A&E dengan baby ajelah... hehe.

I just finished talking to my friend at Shah Alam, asking how was my other friend, Bash doing. Yesterday, she underwent probably a thoracotomy to remove her lung abscess... She was well all this while and suddenly had a pricking nature of pain over her right shoulder. When she went to seek for treatment, the doctor told her that she was anemic and had high platelets.. Some infections was going on... Then, they did further investigation. Chest X Ray showed most of her right lung was hyperdense??? So, they decided for the op yesterday. My fren tried to call me before the op, but I was tired to answer the phone... Sorry...

But Alhamdulillah, the op went well, and currently she's in the ICU for close observation. There's tube draining from her right lung... I hope she'll recover soon. Sorry for not being there my dearest friend, but you are always in my du'a...

Thank's Aisya for coming by... :) Well, today I got the chance to read your Puteri Di Hati. It was really nice to read your story... Maybe this was the story that you had written long time ago and wanted me to publish at my other blog?? hmmph??? Anyways, it was a very good touching story indeed... I'm not sure how will I face it if I were you... But Alhamdulillah, finally Fatimah Yasmin is there to cheer you up every single day of your life... :)

Tadi chat dengan My Twin... hehe. Dia panggil kita Mak Buyung To Be!!! Ahaks... Pasni dapat tengok "el the gemuk". hehehe

"Little Khalifah"
My chinese friend sms me and asked "Let me know when the patters of the little khalifah is nearby..." :) I was quite shocked when I receive that sms....from a Chinese... :) I hope and pray may Allah guide him to convert to Islam one day... :)

Wednesday, November 22, 2006



Earlier today, I didn't feel good at all... Well, this morning, my specialist made his round at the A&E zones... I was in yellow zone. He doesn't like the A&E to be filled up with patients. As early as possible, we have to discharge the patient or admit them to the ward. I was so scared when he was around yesterday...

Anyways, he asked me about one of the patients that I clerked. I didn't fully clerked the patient. He was upset... but the good point was he took the time to teach me... Memang rasa malu sangat2, bodoh sangat2, sedih sangat2... :( Dah lah takut bila dia soal tak dapat jawab. But we finally came to the same diagnosis... Alhamdulillah. He stressed on the assessment of the patient...

Since we didn't have many patient, he asked me to present the other case that I clerked. My feelings were the same like when I failed the last time... Sedih sangat2... Tak pandai2, walaupun dah repeat! Sedih rasanya, Allah saja yang tau... Tapi syukur sangat, specialist tu sabar ajar dan nasihat. Dia cakap, "You are a MO now, not a HO. You are alone now." :( He thought me well... Alhamdulillah. Thank you Allah... Memang rasa sedih, tapi at the same time, as I wrote in my previous posting.. Mungkin Allah sengaja nak tunjuk kat specialist tu yang banyak benda yang kita tak tau... so dia pun ajar lah... :) Allah knows me best!!!

I was sad again when I came home and my husband not around for me to pour out my sadness... So, what did I do??? *Uwaaaaa* after my Maghrib prayer... I cried with my baby... Biarlah cerita tu hanya Baby Apple yang tau citer... Then, chat with Dr. Nani... Sambil2 baca entry masa fail exam hari tuh....

*Uwaaaa* again... try reading it at My Old Story... Mesti korang pun tangkap syahdu.. ;)

Oklah... Tak baik sedih2. Nanti baby pun sedih... :)

May Allah cherish me and my baby always... Ameen....


Tuesday, November 21, 2006



Toche Toche...
Terima kasih deh!
Sudi demo maghi baco gapo ambo dok nulih... Timo kasih banyok laaa...
Bayu Pagi, baiti, semek, Syahlisa, My Twin, Kak Wan, Ana... ;)

Memang pun la ni ada masa nak blogging, that's why semangat nak menulis blog. Nanti boleh la "baby ummi" baca bila dia dah besar. Ummi dia suka tulis blog... My husband pun masa kawin hari tu cakap, "Suka sangat tulis blog?" hehe. Nasib dia tak halang kita menulis je... ;) Yelah, bercinta selepas kawin, mana nak kenal sangat hati budi masing2... hehe...

Pening palo ni, ngantuk. Shift pagi hari ni. Tak berapa banyak kes. Cumanya, sekarang wad A&E ditutup. Jadinya, kebanyakan patient akan dihantar ke wad atau balik ke rumah. Bos A&E particular sikit. Tak boleh tengok ramai patient terbaring atas stretcher. Yelah, patient keep on coming, so terpaksa la see, examine, treat and let go... Tapi kena tulis waktu sekarang sebabnya ada sorang lagi nak guna computer ni malam nanti... hehe

Terbaca kat blog Raiyan, baiti tulis, "Demam blogskin baru ke sekarang ni?" hehe. Rasanya macam betul je... ;) Actually kita tukar new blogskin sebabnya that day rasa down giler2. Lepas tu tengok, belek2 Missapple's Corner for motivation... Memang boleh jadi blog motivation la blog lama tu... Masa tu memang sedih sokmo. Air mata, daun gugur sokmo sebab jadi missapple. Tapi, at the same time there were so many lifting thoughts in the blog.. :) Terlalu banyak yang dapat dipelajari dari pengalaman, samada pahit atau manis... Yang penting, ingat semua ujian tersebut datangnya dari Allah SWT dan pastinya kita mampu untuk menghadapinya... ;) Syukur zaman "missapple" sudah pun berlalu... Kini zaman Mrs. Apple with Mr. Apple and Baby Apple. hehe

Monday, November 20, 2006



To Mar & Ana... here's the good news... ;)

Alhamdulillah, yesterday went for booking antenatal checkup at ONG Clinic at our hospital. Went there with my husband since he knows most of the people around here... So, he asked help from his senior at ONG to have our 1st scan... (this is the test that I've been waiting for.. ;) )

We are very grateful to see the baby eventhoug it was in "black and white"... Comel! ;) To see the heart beat... SubhanaLlah. Tak puas tengok... ;)

Singleton baby, corresponded to my date, and already 30cm long.. ;) No more questions of twins... hehe. InsyaAllah due date 18 June 2007.

Sms my family that I did the scan.
Mak: "Let the birthdate be same as A2."(A kuasa 2 stands for Afdhol and Arsyad, my twin nephews. Their birthdate was 16 June 2006.)
My husband said that,
"Nanti Mak kena sediakan 3 birthday gifts untuk semua cucu Mak."
She then replied,
"Takpe. Hadiah untuk A2, the new baby. Hadiah baby of Solahuda, A2."

Ayah called me and reconfirm whether it's singleton or twins. hehe. He joked,
"Ayah ingat semua keturunan Ayah akan dapat twins... " hehe. Sabar jelah Ayah!

Abgalong: Yey! Another boy!
:p Adik ipar abgalong cakap, baby girl kut... :)

To Our First Baby
Ummi and Abah are very happy to have you.. soon, insyaAllah. May you grow healthy and complete physically till we get to see you next year on 18th June 2007. May you and me have good health and no problems occur during the pregnancy, labour and when you have already been delivered. May Allah protect us both and may Allah calm your Abah... coz the person who will be very "runsing" during this period will be your Abah... Ameen...

Scan picture, my husband ckp dia nak scan. Kalau ada kita tunjuk la... :)

Saturday, November 18, 2006



Hmm, nampaknya suami isteri kat rumah Kuarters B 7-3 ni masih lagi demam. Syukur semalam dapat 1 hari rehat sama2 di rumah. Since the night before I was night shift, I couldn't open my eyes yesterday's morning. Tapi hati ni memang nak pergi pasar sebab dah takde barang nak masak kat rumah. Initial days in A & E, I was so lazy to cook. My husband even told me not to cook... Now, since I can adjust my time, insyaAllah will be able to cook myself. :) Suamiku cakap dia takde selera nak makan sangat... sebab dia demam tapi nampak dia makan sotong goreng tu berselera jugak... hehe

Alhamdulillah, syukur the night shift went smoothly. I slept for 1 1/2 hours, that's why the next morning I just can't open my eyes... There was another case of an ant went inside the ear... (Wonder why the small bugs like to enter the ear???) Other cases... yang biasa2.. Kebanyakannya Acute Gastroenteritis (AGE) because of food poisoning.

Kes yang luar biasa... 2 pesakit psykiatri... :) Memang menakutkan.

1st patient, 19 years old lady. When she entered the Green Zone room, she was staring at me and then, when I looked at my watch to write down the time, she stood up and tried to take my watch using her handcuffed hands... Subhanallah, masa tu takut sangat... I called the policeman to calm her down because I needed to write few papers before admitting her to the ward...

2nd patient, an old man, wearing a cap and holding a cigarrette. He was not handcuffed but he was shouting when he talked. I was so scared. He really shouted and blow my ears. He was boasting around telling that he knew the Director Hospital and Tun Dr Mahathir... Maniac patients. Eee... Seram sangat!!!

Kesian, tapi kadang2 kelakar jugak. Alhamdulillah, I'm getting used to A & E shifts and like to be working there... :)

My husband kept on mentioning "ATOK's" name. Atok is my grandfather on my mother's side. He's staying alone at Port Dickson after my Nenek passed away last year. My husband loves to chat with Atok. He knows how to pleasure and charm old people. That's why he's a good doctor.. ;) Memang seronok tengok Atok borak dengan suamiku. Tak habis bercerita. Tak habis gelak. hehe. Yelah, siapa je yang larat nak cakap dengan Atok yang banyak cakap. Nasibla ada cucu menantu laki sorang yang rajin nak layan Atok dia... ;-) Thanks Abang...

This morning, Mak called. My husband's oncall today. Mak said that my hubby sms to her telling her that we both having fever. Abang rindu kat Atok, Mak Ayah ke??? Well, we planned already maybe 1st December we'll be going back to Atok's house.. And maybe on the 2nd, we'll meet Mak Ayah at Atok's house... Mak pesan, "Plan betul2.. " :)

"Kalau dah rindu tu, jangan rindu aje. Balik la sini..." Mak cakap... ;)
Nak balik la ni... ;)

Wokes... Setakat ini dulu. Takde mood nak makan... Kena balik rumah Ma & Wey kat Pasir Pekan (my in laws). Tak leh duk sorang2... ;)

Thursday, November 16, 2006



Yupp... I can't believe it myself... Suddenly, last night during Maghrib, I felt my body aching and warm... Was at my in laws's house because my father-in-law was not well yesterday. My husband had fever ad had to help my father-in-law at the same time. While he was with his father, I felt feverish... Chilling away.... (maybe I was so scared to go to hospital for night shift??? hehe) But I still went to work last night...

Alhamdulillah, patients who came yesterday to the yellow and green zones were manageable. Actually in A & E, we have 3 zones... RED ZONE for severe patients and need closer observation... YELLOW ZONE for less severe patients and need to be observed for few hours and given few medications... GREEN ZONE for quite well patients and can be discharged home after we give medications...

Few of the cases I saw yesterday,
1. Foreign body inside the ear
A young lady came screaming away in the yellow zone for pain in the ear. There was a small bug flied into her ear while she was watching TV. I examined the ear, there was a BUG skeleton that I can see. Since I'm not sure what was the bug's name... But the mother kept on saying, "Ibu masuk, Hok ibu masuk." I didn't understand at all what was the "Ibu". When I asked again, she kept on saying "Ibu." (This is the usual fenomenan here in HKB... I don't understand what were they saying sometimes... hehe.)

Anyways, one of the MA helped me out. He said he will try to remove it. Alhamdulillah, he removed it... and the A & E Yellow zone was quiet suddenly... ;) I saw the bug out, it was about 1 cm with 4 legs... still not sure what's the name of the bug... When I asked my husband, he said probably "kabung." Macam2...

2. Unstable Angina
An old lady came with pain over the upper abdomen with vomiting. She had multiple problems before. When we did ECG, to show any abnormalities in the heart, it showed some abnormalities. I was not sure what was the changes in the ECG. So, showed to my senior MO. She said patient has Unstable Angina. We had to transfer patient to Red Zone. Cuak jugak masa tu... But, called Medical MO, and he came and review patient there and treat the patient by himself. I had to settle with the patients keep on coming in the Yellow Zone and Green Zone.

Overall, I think last night shift was quite ok, manageable... Alhamdulillah. My senior MO let me slept from 5am to 7:30am. Syukur Alhamdulillah... It was very cold in A & E. Have to bring sweater tonight... My Senior MO was clever to wear thick clothes with had gloves!!! :) I hope I can handle all the cases which come to A & E tonight. Ameen.. May Allah make it easy for me... Ameen....

Popular lagi soalan ni... ;)
Abang pulak jawab la.. hehe

Wednesday, November 15, 2006



Alhamdulillah, suamiku demam tak teruk mana.. Syukur la. Walaupun pada mulanya risau jugak sebab badan dia panas... Tapi lepas makan nasi, makan ubat, demamnya kebah. Bila malam, sekejap sejuk, sekejap berpeluh. Dia terlalu penat dengan oncall dia malam semalam. Caesar dari siang sampai ke malam hingga ke esok paginya... By the way, suamiku di bahagian bius/anaest...

Hari ni, seharian tak kerja, tapi kerjaku bermula 10 malam ni... Kalai pertama syif malam. Takut memang ada sebabnya masih lagi tak pandai dengan kes2 di A&E. Selalu bertanya dengan kawan2 yang lebih senior. Syif malam, hanya 2 orang yang akan bekerja. Tak tau lah macam mana dengan tak pandai nye lagi ni... Tawakkal... Doakan kita eh?......

Sejak kerja syif ni, ada masa, ada peluang jadi surirumah. Pada awal2 kerja di A&E, takde mood nak kemas rumah, masak2... Tapi bila dah biasa sekarang, pandai adjust masa, sekarang adalah peluang kemas rumah dan hal2 yang berkaitan dengan rumah.. Dapatlah jadi surirumah. Mana ada peluang macam ni dulu2... ;) Alhamdulillah. Sepatutnya jadi lebih bersyukur dengan kurnian yang telah diberikanNya selama ni... Alhamdulillah...

Well, my husband wants to find a blogskin for himself. Hmmm... He has a particular blogskin that he wants... I'm not good understanding all the coding. My current blogskin, thanks to the template which I used only 2-3 hours to readjust my blog... If I use another skin, maybe I'm unable to do it in 2-3 hours... maybe more hours...
Sori ye Abang... Abang pemilih... Susah nak cari. Dah cari dah, tak jumpa2 lagi... :D

Tuesday, November 14, 2006



Alhamdulillah, thanks lukluk for the compliment. You can get it at Isaini. hehe. Promo free blogskin... Well, I'm not like some of them who knows how to create their own skin. However by just following Isaini's instructions in the blogskin, I'm able to make this blogskin possible not impossible... :)

Hmmm, dengar dalam telefon, suamiku demam. Dia tak pernah sakit sejak kawin. Cemana ye? Selalunya bila kita demam, dia selalu runsing. Buatkan susu, bagi makan ubat... Memang seorang doktor yang baik... :D Tapi, bini dia cemana ye??? Harapnya boleh buat yang terbaik untuk suamiku dan biarlah dia cepat pulih... Ameen.

Soalan macam mana boleh kawin dengan suamiku masih lagi tak berakhir sampai sekarang walaupun kami dah berkahwin selama 5 bulan lebih... hehe. Cemana sorang blaja kat India, sorang blaja kat KL boleh berkenalan dan kawin? Kenal kat mana??? hehe.

Jodoh, itulah yang mempertemukan kami berdua... :)

Oklah, setakat ini dulu... buat Bayu Pagi, thanks for coming over... What's your blog address ye??? ;)

Monday, November 13, 2006

Not Beta Blogger but A New Blogskin!!!


Alhamdulillah, hari ni hajat tercapai nak update blogskin baru. Actually sejak semalam duk cari blogskin sesuai tapi akhirnya, ketemu juga dengan yang ini hari ini... Oklah, pasni suamiku tak payah berebut komputer dengan diriku lagi... hehe...

Thanks to A very very very simple blogskin to follow... and taraaaa.... jadi cantik camni... ;) I'm happy with it....

Bread and Tuna
Hari ni dinner 6 keping roti dengan tuna & tomato. As usual, kalau suami oncall, takde mood nak makan. Especially makan nasi. So, decided to buy roti and tuna. Suami pun naik jeles bila kata nak makan roti bakar dengan tuna. Dia pun naik lapar. hehe. Soriiii...;)

Apa2pun thanks to my wedding gift! Toaster yang boleh bakar 4 KEPING ROTI! Read that again... 4 PIECES OF BREAD! yup... Tak tau lah sape yang bagi, tapi terima kasih banyak2!!! Product Electrolux. :) Baru 1st time guna hari ni. Canggih gak. Ada 4 button boleh main tekan2... hehe. Siap ada laci untuk bread crumbs... Ntah mmg canggih zaman kini punya barangan!!! hehe...

Last pieces baru je habis makan.... Burp! hehe. Minum dengan susu AnMUM!!! :D

Kisah Ngeri
Semalam kami dapat tahu, suami isteri yang baru kawin 5 bulan gitu... Tiba2, nampaknya si suami berdating dengan pompuan bertudung tapi seksi. Hmmm, isterinya pun tak menjaga sangat batas2an antara dia dengan lelaki... Hmm, sama2 rosak... Ngeri jugak dengar citer macam tu. Baru 5 bulan kawin... :(

Semuga Allah jauhkan perkara tersebut dari kalangan kita semua dan semuga Allah pelihara hubungan kita antara suami isteri, sahabat handai dari muslihat syaitan... Ameen....

To the Anonymous Sms:
I'm a married woman. Not eligible, not available except for my only beloved husband. I am the perfect choice for my husband and he's the perfect choice for me... :D

Setakat ini dulu berita kita... Lenkali sambung lagi. Dah lama tak tulis blog. Bahasa tunggang langgang la...

Buat suamiku yang oncall,
Kalau sempat baca blog ni, bacalah... Jangan jeles blogskin kita dah lawa... hehe. Semuga oncall Abang dipermudahkan... Ameen.

Saturday, November 11, 2006

Hmm... New BETA BLOGGER????


Thanks kaklong for coming by my blog... Wait till I announce the good news la yer??? Belum buat lagi satu test... :D

Well, now my work follows the shift rule. So, everyday I have some time to be in front of this computer. Feels like updating the blog everyday... However, depends on my ideas and stories... I do have lots of stories from A&E... Actually it's more of a lot to learn from the stories.. :)

Anyways, will tell you later when I have a better mood... (Not sure when is that??? hehe) Hopefully sooon....

Thought of changing the blogskin, and to the new beta blogger... hmmmmm......


Monday, November 06, 2006


An old American Muslim lived on a farm in the mountains of eastern Kentucky with his young grandson. Each morning Grandpa was up early sitting at the kitchen table reading his Qur'an.

His grandson wanted to be just like him and tried to imitate him in every way he could.

One day the grandson asked,
"Grandpa, I try to read the Qur'an just like you but I don't understand it, and what I do understand I forget as soon as I close the book. What good does reading the Qur'an do?"

The Grandfather quietly turned from putting coal in the stove and replied,
"Take this coal basket down to the river and bring me back a basket of water."

The boy did as he was told, but all the water leaked out before he got back to the house.

The grandfather laughed and said,
"You'll have to move a little faster next time," and sent him back to the river with the basket to try again. This time the boy ran faster, but again the basket was empty before he returned home.

Out of breath, he told his grandfather that it was impossible to carry water in a basket, and he went to get a bucket instead. The old man said,
"I don't want a bucket of water; I want a basket of water. You're just not trying hard enough," and he went out the door to watch the boy try again.

At this point, the boy knew it was impossible, but he wanted to show his grandfather that even if he ran as fast as he could, the water would leak out before he got back to the house.

The boy again dipped the basket into river and ran hard, but when he reached his grandfather the basket was again empty.

Out of breath, he said,
"See Grandpa, it's useless!"
"So you think it is useless?"
The old man said, "Look at the basket."

The boy looked at the basket and for the first time realized that the
basket was different. It had been transformed from a dirty old coal basket
and was now clean, inside and out.

"Son, that's what happens when you read the Qur'an. You might not understand or remember everything, but when you read it, you will be changed, inside and out. That is the work of Allah in our lives."

Jazakallahukhairankathira... from khaulah's blog...

Ter"uja" untuk meng"update"


15 SYAWAL 1427
Salam Aidilfitri buat semua... Maaflah sebab tak berkesempatan untuk menulis blog mengucapkan selamat berpuasa... tau2, hari ni dah cukup 15 Syawal!! :)

Harapnya masih tak terlambat untuk kita mohon maaf atas segala tersalah kata bahasa dalam blog ni selama berada di alam maya sejak tahun 2004??? Lama jugak tu... :) Apa2pun, terlalu banyak pengalaman pahit pada awal blogging dan sekiranya ada yang tersisa-sisa terasa, maafkan kita. Bukan sengaja, tapi itulah aturan hidup kita yang telah ditetapkan olehNya... Manusia tak lari dari kelemahan... dan ujian dariNya pasti ada hikmah di sebaliknya... InsyaAllah...

Banyak pulak nak berceloteh.... hehehe

Alhamdulillah, pada awal Ramadhan, kami telah masuk ke rumah kuarters kami bersebelahan dengan Hospital Raja Perempuan Zainab II, Kota Bharu... Sebenarnya dah lama dapat rumah tapi, selepas sebulan baru kami berpeluang untuk menetap secara rasmi di sini...

Raya baru ni, adik2, mak ayah, makcik dan tok dari Besut datang makan nasi ayam "Huda masak!" Tukang komen cakap, OKlah... Cuma ayam keras sikit.. Tu co-chef yang masak. Jangan komen lebih2. hehe. Adik cakap dia pun nak kerja dengan kerajaan kalau dapat rumah besar macam rumah kita... 4 bilik, 3 toilets, 2 lounges, 1 kitchen, 1 small coridor for the laundry... :D Besar tak rumah kita??? Kalau tak caya, kena datang tengok sendiri...

Tapi yang tak best bila rumah besar ni, duduk 2 orang je... Macam malam ni, suami kita oncall, so, tinggal sorang2, memang tak seronok... Berdepan dengan komputer la! hehe

Apa2pun, Alhamdulillah dapat tinggal di rumah kuarters ni.. Tingkat 6 ye!!! :D

Yup! Alhamdulillah, 2nd of November, I've finished being a houseman for 12 months... Now, being a junior medical officer at A & E (Acute and Emergency). Baru hari ke-2. Tiap2 hari doa and solat hajat muga dipermudahkan kerja kat situ sebabnya, dah lama tinggal medical, banyak tak ingat... Sedih jugak! Tapi hopefully I can polish back my knowledge and at the same time start reading the books... Banyak kena belajar...

Thanks to all in Paeds! Everybody was nice there and I really enjoyed being there in Paeds... I've learnt neonatal resuscitation, doing intubation, exchange transfusion, taking babies blood and management in babies and children. Alhamdulillah... Well, reading through My Twin's blog, she did mention someday who knows maybe she'll be doing paeds?? hehe. Well, same phrase for me also... Someday... InsyaAllah one day! ;)

May Allah ease my work and stay at A & E... May Allah help me to help every patients who's very ill and needs special attention... May I become a good doctor... Ameen... Doakan!

InsyaAllah, will let you guys know later... ;)

Setakat ini dulu celoteh Mrs. Apple.. :) Boring Mr. Apple tak ada kat rumah. hehe

Thanks to
bluehikari, bint al-huda, kak ida, lil sis, my twin, kak wan... for boostering me up to update my blog! :D

Ok lah, gotta go. Mr Apple dah call suruh tido sebab esok kerja syif pagi... Wokes...

Friday, September 22, 2006



Semalam oncall. Hari ni suami pulak oncall.
Boring sangat rasanya hari ni.
Telefon berbunyi.
Panggilan dari suami.
Nampaknya sibuk oncall dia hari ni.
"Kenapa senyap? Ok ke? Sedih je? Ke suka?"
Tiada jawapan.
"Tengah buat apa? Blog? Dengar lagu tu?"

Ingatkan bluehikari dah senyap.
Tapi, tadi terjumpa blog bluehikari.
Lagu background...
Memang best!
Memang jiwang!

Hatiku pilu.
Teringat sebelum kawin dulu...
Rasa tak mungkin aku akan berkahwin...
Tapi, tanpa ku sedari...
Jodoh Pertemuannya...

Sekarang, persoalan "orang ketiga"
Aku berserah hanya padaNya...
Seronok tengok baca blog sahabat2 blog
Sudah mempunyai putera puteri
Rakan sekerjaku sudah mula loya, muntah...
Perasaan yang ku rasai bukan aku sengaja...
Hanya kepadaMu aku serahkan segalanya...

Terima kasih bluehikari... Tumpang dengar lagu sambil tulis blog...

Friday, September 15, 2006



Alhamdulillah, hari ni feel much better... Dah takde diarrhea dah. Syukur sangat! :)

Tadi ada kawan bgtau, kawan baik dia nak kawin. Bila ditanya, sedih ke? Dia jawab sedih sikit2 sebab dia belum berjumpa dengan jodohnya... Rilekla wahai sahabatku... InsyaAllah akan tiba masanya... ok?

Bila belum kawin, ditanya bila nak kawin?
Tapi... bila dah kawin, ditanya bila nak ada anak?

Biasalah manusia. Buat tak tau ajelah. Rezeki anak, rezeki jodoh di tanganNya... Dia lebih berhak menentukannya... Berdoa dan berharap, selebihnya, berserah dan bertawakkal. Kalau kawin tu mudah, awal2 lagi lah kita kawin ye tak? Nak dapat anak pun sama jugak... Yang penting, jangan jadikan kedua2nya tu penghalang untuk kita hidup bahagia dan gembira... ;)

Antara el dengan suami, kami tak pernah bercinta sebelum kawin. Jadi peluang yang ada sekarang, kami berkenal-kenalan dulu la... :) Perasaan malu pun ada lagi... hehe. Apa2pun, yang penting, percaya pada qada' dan qadarNya... :)


11 SYAWAL 1426H
Alhamdulillah... Pertemuan meleraikan persoalan yang selama ini digeruni... Segalanya dipermudahkan di siang hari tadi. Pada mulanya, tidak mahu menzahirkan diri untuk pertemuan yang dirancang setelah sekian lama... Akhirnya, bertemu... namun tidak berbicara sekehendaknya... Masih mendengar bicara dari orang tua... Mereka makan sambil berbincang... Mata terlalu mengantuk... Bukan sengaja... Tetapi... Hikmahnya, Allah menutupkan pendengaranku ketika perbincangan tersebut... Allah Maha Mendengar... Allah Mengkabulkan hajat... Allah Maha Mengetahui siapa yang terbaik... Bila sudah tiba masanya... Bila sudah bertemu dengan orangnya... Bila sudah hadir jodohnya... Semuanya berlaku tanpa disedari... Terima Kasih Ya Allah... Alhamdulillah... Sebuah penantian akan berakhir... Ameen...

Thursday, September 14, 2006



Apa khabar semua? Dah lama tak update blog ek? :D
Hari ni, emcee 1 hari sebab sakit perut, severe diarrhea... So, amik chance tulis blog la...

Sejak 4 hari lepas, asyik diarrhea, tapi paling maksimum, 3-4 kali satu hari. Semalam, lebih dari 10 kali pergi tandas. Masa tu selepas makan nasi yang dibeli di warung. Dari 1430H, tak berhenti ke tandas. Malu juga, sebab masa tu specialist tengah buat round dalam ward. Sepatutnya ikut dia round, tapi perut tak mengizinkan. Terpaksa beritahu specialist sakit perut. Ada kalanya dalam tandas tertidur sebab postcall... Tapi tak tidur lama la... hehe

Petang semalam, dengan air yang sudah banyak keluar dari badan, badan terasa amat letih. Nasib jalanraya tak sibuk dengan jam. Alhamdulillah, sampai di rumah, terus melelapkan mata... Suami telefon pun tak dengar. Runsing dia kerana dia berkursus sekarang di Pantai Cahaya Bulan. Tiada kereta untuk pulang ke rumah. Pada asalnya, dia menyuruh untuk mengambil dia. Tapi dalam keadaan tak sampai 15-20 minit hendak ke tandas, bagaimana mahu pergi?

Akhirnya, suami sampai juga di rumah. Sahabat baiknya hantar ke rumah. Kami terus ke Emergency Department Hospital. Doktor menyuruh masuk drip, 1 botol. Memang masa tu, rasa badan dah tak bermaya... Suami mencucuk masukkan jarum. Sakit!! Tapi buat diam aje... Teringat kat budak2 yang selalu saya cucuk di ward Pediatrik. Mesti mereka lagi tak tahan sakit kena cucuk banyak kali... :( Selepas 1/2 jam, 1 botol air sudah masuk dalam badan. Alhamdulillah, rasa lebih segar. Balik rumah, terus terasa lapar. Makan biskut, kemudian ke tandas semula... :D

Tapi, hari ini, diarrhea sudah berkurang. Makan nasi air dengan ikan bakar + roti. Maklumla, orang kuat makan. Tiba2, nikmat makannya ditarik, Subhanallah! susah nak kata... hehe.

Apapun, buat suami yang tersayang, TERIMA KASIH kerana terlalu mengambil berat akan diri ini... Mahu tergelak, suami rasakan perasaan runsing terhadap bininya sakit suatu yang abnormal.. ditanya pada kawannya... "Kalau binimu sakit, mu runsing tak? Kawan dia jawab, "Mestilah, bini sakit! Bini!" hehe.

:) Terima kasih suamiku...

Semalam dalam sakit perut, sempat chat dengan Mak. Mak di Canada buat masa ni sehinggalah akhir bulan ni, insyaAllah. Akan mula berpuasa di Canada la pulak. Tahun lepas, kami mula berpuasa di Madinah... Terasa baru saje ke Madinah, Mekah... :) Alhamdulillah, Ramadhan datang lagi... :)

Mak nak blog untuk hantar gambar buat tatapan kaum keluarganya dia rumah... :) Jadi, sementara cuti ni, belajar2 semula macam mana nak buat blog, walaupun dah banyak lupa...


Alhamdulillah, nak masuk 4 bulan berkahwin. Setakat ni, masih lagi duduk di rumah mertua. Tetapi sudah dapat kuarters Hospital. Besar ruang rumahnya. Fully furnished! :) Dah pindah barang sikit2, tetapi belum kemas sepenuhnya kerana suami sibuk berkursus.InsyaAllah selepas ni akan duduk di sana...

2 bulan di Pediatrik, Alhamdulillah, selama 2 bulan ditempatkan di wad neonate/newborn. Seronok bekerja di situ, tapi ada kalanya tension. Tapi banyak yang dah belajar. Satu pengalaman oncall yang paling tak boleh dilupakan...

Oncall neonate dengan junior MO yang baru di neonate. Semasa tengah buat kerja di ward, tiba2, junior MO dapat call untuk pergi tengok baby di Dewan Bedah. Sementara itu, Senior MO datang. Dapat call, baby flat di Labor Room. Dia menyuruh el ke sana. Berlari ke Labor Room. Bila tengok baby memang teruk. Tak bernafas dengan elok... Akhirnya, saya suruh staffnurse telefon Senior MO. Sementara itu, el bagingg patient.. Bila Senior MO sampai, dia suruh el intubate baby. Masa tu kali kedua dapat intubate baby. Alhamdulillah... Tak lama kemudian, kaki baby mengayuh basikal. Staffnurse kata, aktif budak. Sebenarnya baby tersebut telah fit/sawan.

Kemudian, kami bawa baby ke ward Neonate ICU (NICU). Di sana, diberi ubat... Dan kemudian, el terpaksa memasukkan line darah ke dalam tali pusatnya. Alhamdulillah, dapat juga buat Umbilical Artery Catheterization/Umbilical Vein Catheterization.

Hampir selesai dengan UAC/UVC, dapat call dari ward Special Care for Neonate (SCN), baby premature tak comel. Setelah selesai kerja di NICU, el ke sana pula. Mula2 ok bagi oxygen, tapi tak comel jugak. Jadi, junior MO + senior MO handle. Mereka intubate baby dan di bawa ke NICU.

El pula sibuk nak buat Exchange Transfusion untuk Severe Neonatal Jaundice baby. Baby kuning, hari ke4 selepas lahir, kuningnya tinggi 510. Specialist suruh buat ET. Darah bayi ditukar dengan darah orang lain. Jadi terpaksa buat UVC juga. Alhamdulillah, dapat buat kemudian, terus proceed dengan ET. Satu malam tak dapat tidur... Selesai ET pukul 5pagi...

Sementara di NICU, baby premature yang di intubate, memang tak comel walaupun disambung kepada mesin. Akhirnya, tiada degupan jantung. Tiada pernafasan. Selama 45 minit cuba buat CPR... Bila sudah berhenti CPR, sudah di katakan mati dan hendak mengambil darah jantungnya untuk hantar ke lab... Baby tersebut bernafas semula.. Jadi disambung semula mesin pernafasan dan memang ajaib, baby tersebut masih lagi hidup sampai hari ini dan aktif! :) "Miracles do happen" kata HOD kami...

Satu malam dapat buat macam2. Seronok walaupun penat. Tapi belajar banyak benda. Alhamdulillah.. :)

Setakat ini dulu... Katil dah panggil. Tandas tak panggil lagi. hehe
Ok la...

"Sudah banyak kali aku katakan padanya, jangan terlalu risau akan diriku, tapi dia masih runsing akan diriku. Aku terharu. Aku sedih. Aku berterima kasih padanya. Aku berterima kasih pada Tuhan kerana mengurniakan dirinya padaku... Syukur Ya Allah kerana dia adalah suamiku..."

Friday, August 18, 2006



Alhamdulillah, hari ni, dapat cuti sama dengan Hubby. :) Well, takde buat apa pun, tapi the thought of we cuti sama makes me happy... :)

Sat ni masak soto. Tak tau la sedap ke tak. Last buat masa kat Manipal dulu... Hubby duk citre dia makan soto kat ICU (he's doing Anaest rite now...). Terliur kita... So, saja la buat since hari ni cuti... Tak tau la apa rasa sebab Hubby belum balik Solat Jumaat lagi. Tunggu dia la...

Nak dekat 3 bulan kawin, tapi rasa macam baru kawin jugak.. hehe. Soalan famous orang suka tanya kat sini, "Cemana boleh kawin dengan Solah?" hehe. Soalan tu rasanya semua orang suka tanya... Lawak jugak...Tapi, senang jawab, "Dah jodoh." :) Tak penah pun kenal suami sebelum kawin dengan dia... jadi waktu ni kami ambil peluang ber"cinta" dulu la sebelum ada orang "ketiga"... hehe. :) Saje berseloroh... Rezeki orang ketiga dalam rumahtangga kami, kami nantikan. Ada rezeki, adalah insyaAllah... :)

Next weekend mak ayah nak datang KB... Bolehla ajak duk rumah baru kami... :)

Salam Jumu'ah!

Tuesday, August 15, 2006



Hmmm.... dah lama tak berjiwang kat sini... ;)

Well, esok kita oncall, the next day my husband pulak oncall... :(

Anyways, nak citer...

Kawan2 yang kawin 27 MEI 2006 dah mengandung... 4 orang semuanya!!!

Masih takde rezeki nak dapat anak lagi... :)
"InsyaAllah, belum masanya." Itu lah sms yang diterima dari Mak.

Alhamdulillah, syukur dengan nikmat yang diberikanNya...
Baru je baik demam/selsema/suara macho..
Uhuk uhuk...

Rezeki Allah pelbagai cara...
Rezeki Allah pelbagai bentuk...
Rezeki Allah di mana-mana...

Dapat rumah sewa comel
Rumah teres baru warna peach
Berkenan sangaaat!

Hubby dapat pulak surat dari Pejabat Pengarah
Kelulusan Perumahan Quarters Pegawai Perubatan
Quarters baru jugak!

Rezeki Hubby!


Semuga Allah mudahkan segala urusan kami....

Rezeki anak... Tawakkal...
Dia Maha Mengetahui...

Buat suamiku,
Terima kasih kerana sentiasa berada di sampingku...
Muga dirimu sentiasa bahagia...

Saturday, July 22, 2006


Menyahut seruan 2 mizzketeers... Update blog.. hehe.

Alhamdulillah.. Hari ni baru dapat bernafas sikit. Semalam oncall weekend "Hari Jumaat", my 2nd oncall. It was busy from morning until this morning... Tapi Alhamdulillah dapat tido 2 jam. Admission started dari pagi sampai ke petang. Dah la pulak, nak kena amik ABG babies kat NICU 6 hourly. Memang pack la keje kat neonate in HKB!!! Dah la nak amik darah babies... halus sangat veins diorang.. adeh! Dulu asyik tension, sian gak kat husband, tapi la ni dah ok la sket nak amik darah babies...

Anyways, Hidup kat KB, macam kat mana2 la jugak. Sama je. :) Teringat zaman kat Manipal. Bila boring2, masak2 resipi baru kat rumah ma... Best!!! hehe. Kuar jalan2 dengan suami tak pernah lagi sebabnya tak sempat. Bila kita oncall, dia free. Bila dia oncall, kita lak free. Gitu lah hidup suami isteri doktor. Tapi, yang syoknye, tiap2 hari wajib jumpa walaupun 1 minit. :) Pastu kat hospital, ramai yang dah kawin. Ada yang dah beranak 2-3 dah. So, diorang akan faham kalau tak makan sama, maknanya makan dengan suami la. :) Syukur, semua orang baik2 belaka kat sini.. Alhamdulillah...

InsyaAllah nak balik KL dalam minggu pertama next month. Baru request tak nak oncall hari tu, tapi tak sure la dapat ke tak. Harapnya dapat cuti la. Balik jumpa semua, and the twins!!! Mesti dah besar gedabak budak dua orang tu! Abang n Adik... Rindunyaaaaaaa.....

Tak tau dah apa nak citer..

Cepat2la kawin, bahagia.. Bercinta selepas kawin...bila berpisah satu minit pun terasa rindu...hehe...

"Abang, cepatlah balik..."

Friday, June 30, 2006



Salam Jumu'ah.. Alhamdulillah, diberi kesempatan untuk menulis dalam blog di pagi Jumu'ah. Sebenarnya dah bercuti lama selama 2 minggu di rumah. UNPAID LEAVE. Yelah, atas idea suami, sebelum meninggalkan KL, slow2 la bagi masa pada family untuk tidak terasa sangat dengan pemergian kita ke tempat jauh... :) So finally, 2 weeks has ended. InsyaAllah, esok akan bertolak ke Kelantan dengan kereta. Ayah, Mak n Ajin yang akan hantar. Kebetulan Ayah ada hal kat sana. On the way back, maybe Tok n Makcik di Besut akan ikut sama.. masing2 nak tengok cucu sedara n cicit baru. ;)

Lupa pulak nak khabar.. Alhamdulillah, kakak ipar dah selamat bersalin secara pembedahan pada 16/6/2006 melahirkan 2 org anak lelaki kembar seiras. :) Tapi buat masa ni tak seirasa sangat sebab sorang besar n sorang lagi kecik sikit. Mereka bertiga keluar dari wad selepas 8 hari. Alhamdulillah, setakat ini meraka berdua aktif dan kuat merengek. ;) hehe Tak berani nak komen banyak2 kat anak sedara, sat gi anak kita tak tahu perangai cemana.. ;)



Tujuan nak kerja kat Kelantan tak lain tak bukan nak duduk dengan suami... Dah sebulan kawin, as the term used nowadays, "Weekend husband n wife." I really hate that term. :( Benci sangat2... I mean how did they came up with such a term. There's no such a thing like that. When we are married, we are husband n wife for the rest of our lives.. not only during the weekdays or the weekends... :( Actually yang cakap macam tu orang yang dah kawin, pelik jugak la. Maybe diorang tak pernah berpisah macam kita ni. Kalau pernah rasa... SubhanaLlah... Allah saja tempat mengadu... (tetiba emotional la pulak... hehe)

Apapun, insyaAllah, pasni duk sekali dengan suami... Yey! :) (ehem... control Huda! hehe)Alhamdulillah... Nanti kalau tersampai ke Kelantan, boleh la nak jumpa kitorang.. :)

Gambar semasa di Kelantan (fotopage dah update dah!)

Oklah... setakat ini dulu...

Missing him so much....

Monday, June 19, 2006



Tatkala menulis blog ni, aku sudah bergelar seorang "bini"!!! :D

Apa khabar semua?? Lama tak update blog. Sori la. Busy dengan wedding and keje... Cuti lama sangat masa nak wedding, so had to do EOD oncall. It was crazy but I asked for long break from oncall. So, was EOD oncall in the Labor Room. Actually mintak tak nak duduk kat Labor Room. However, bila dah duduk kat situ, tak nak kuar dah. :)

Apa2pun, syukur ALhamdulillah, dah lepas ONG posting. Lepas ni akan meneruskan posting seterusnya di HKB. Yup.. insyaAllah, will follow my husband and work there... So, sape2 yang sampai di Kelantan, sila2 la berjumpa dengan kami kat sana.. ;)

Kecek Kelate la ambo pahni! ;)

My marriage??? ;) Best kawin! :) Seronoknya sebab sebelum ni kami tak sempat nak berkenalan, jadi selepas kawin bercinta macam nak rakkkk... ;) Tapi taklah sampai membuatkan orang rasa nak muntah! :) Pandai2la menjaga adab depan orang, ye tak? Alhamdulillah, syukur sangat dapat dia sebagai suami... Senyap2 hang cakap kak wan?? hmmm... Dia banyak cakap dari aku! hehe. Phrase yang dia suka cakap... "BINI AKU." hehe... Doakan kami semuga kami berbahagia sentiasa hingga ke syurga... Ameen.

To my frenz out there... I will always try to treasure our friendships. Thanks a lot for coming during my wedding... And for those who haven't gotten married but already have a candidate, kawin2 la cepat... and for those who haven't found anyone, trust and put your belief to Allah.. that one day you will meet someone to be your husband. InsyaALlah.... Just like me... :)


Ok people... Keep in touch. My pics at

Wednesday, May 10, 2006



Sori for keeping it a secret.. well "he" didn't want me to let people know early... :) Anyways, here comes the invitation. Thanks to ummi elzahra.. :) Jazakillah khayr.. Hope to see you dear... Mar, jemput lah datang... Fynn, it's ok la. Have fun at BTN.. Kak wan, maya baru bgtau maybe dia tak boleh nak datang 27 mei tu... :( sedihnye...

Takpela.. semua yang terjadi ada hikmahnya...
Terlalu banyak ujian yang terpaksa di redah... Nak bina masjid bukannya mudah..
"Masjidul SolaHuda" :)

Jemput la... :)

Susah nak percaya i'm getting married??? :) after all the hastle... :) Allah knows me best! ;)
Take care...

Friday, May 05, 2006



Dah lama tak berblogging... Busy sangat DR. el kat HKL.. That's why la... Being the HO leader at ONG is really bad. Takinbg care of 36 ho at one time... and doing the oncall roster is the worst part! However, I have requested to resign from being the HO leader since I have only 22 more days for the BIG DAY! Hopefully we will get a better HO leader.. Ameen.

Counting the days until the BID DAY... memang terlalu banyak dugaannya... Tak terkata... Syukur dugaan yang dilalui boleh dikongsi dengan "dia". Mungkin hikmah ujian2 yang melanda adalah untuk lebih mengenali siapa si "dia". :) hehe.... Alhamdulillah...

Just going thro the ALUMNI HIRA's emel... hmmm... 3 org yang lain akan kawin pada hari yang sama... Hmmm... then I don't expect everybody to attend my wedding... :) But I hope they can make it...

Anyways... that's all for now.. I will miss labor room... :)

Thanks Mama elzahra. ;)

Tuesday, April 04, 2006

50 MORE DAYS....


O Allah! Please grant me one
Who will be the garment for my soul
Who will satisfy half of my deen
And in doing so make me whole

Make him righteous and on your path
In all he'll do and say
And sprinkle water on me at Fajr
Reminding me to pray

May he earn from halal sources
And spend within his means
May he seek Allah's guidance always
To fulfill all his dreams

May he always refer to Qur'an
and the Sunnah as his moral guide
May he thank and appreciate Allah
For the woman at his side

May he be conscious of his anger
And often fast and pray
Be charitable and sensitive
In every possible way

May he honor and protect me
And guide me in this life
And please Allah! Make me worthy
to be his loving wife

And finally, O Allah!
Make him abundant in love and laughter
In taqwa and sincerity
In striving for the hereafter


Abdul Mateen Khan

Tuesday, February 28, 2006


Hari ni memang tension tahap gaban siot!!! Kena marah and marah pastu kena marah lagi! Tension LAAAAAAAAAAHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Saja nak lepas geram dalam ni...
Anyways, i hope and doa that i will recover from these tension soon... coz I'll be in ONG for the next 4 months! Arrrgghhhh....

There is a saying...
Sebelum kena jemput, baik tak payah jemput dulu... hehehe.

Last... Doa and pray that Muhd Athif, anak Aiman n Aida pulih cepat.. In KK9, Paeds HKL... He's so small in that whatever box you call it.. :( Doakan...

Wokes. GTG... Nak pi makan.. Miss my MAK!!! :(

Saturday, February 25, 2006

I'M 26 TODAY!!!


Alhamdulillah... I'm 26 today! We had multi celebration today. Syukur I was not oncall today... So, enjoyed myself.. Apa taknya.. my sedara, got married today. 2 orang. Sorang pakcik sedara n sorang 2 pupu...

Yang bestnya... my 2 pupu tu dikenankan oleh my Mak to get married with my sepupu punye kawan... Tak pasal2 jadi matchmaker.. ;) Tapi, agaknya memang runs in the family, kan lukluk??? hehehe. Syukurlah memang dipermudahkan... Kebetulan, matchmaker n the couple pakai baju warna sama.. YELLOW! hehe. Tak pasai2, org salah anggap... "Mak pengantin ke?" Epppp!!! Nanti dulu ye Mak nak jadi mak pengantin pun!!! hehe

Anyways.. Selamat Pengantin Baru to my kak sepupu... and also my pakcik sedara... :) Semuga jodoh berpanjangan dan kekal bahagia selamanya... Ameen. Doakan Huda pulakk.. hehe.

And.. hepi besday to me.. and my big bro.. :) We have the same birthday date but different year. :) Thanks to my family.. dapat kes besar n nampak sedap! Tak sempat nak makan lagi sebab "4 mulut" tak sampai lagi.. hehe.. ;) Maya faham la erti 4 mulut! hehehe

Okes.. To my dear kak wan... hopefully, you will recover soon... Mizzwanda admitted, semalam dia eksiden. Patah kaki n tangan kiri... :( Sedih la... Harap dia cepat sembuh.. and hopefully sebelum dia sembuh sepenuhnya, sempat nak pi visit dia.. :) InsyaAllah.... Doakan dia cepat sembuh ye>? ;)

Wokes. That's all for today....

Wednesday, February 22, 2006


To my other piece of heart...

Sometimes, life can be very difficult
Eventhough you know that you are on the right side
Just couldn't help it la...
But look at the bright said..
We think we are having the worst thing ever to happen to us
However, Allah showed...
A 39 weeker, EDD 25/2/2006, suddenly had decreased baby movement...
And confirmed that the baby had passed away...
A friend who had a gout came to work eventhough the pain is unbearable..
But was scolded for being so slow...

See.. if you compare yourself with their sadness... their pain...
It makes what you had experienced seems not so bad..
Allah is fair to us...
Allah loves us
Things happen for reasons... insyaAllah...
Up to us to ponder..
To realise what is the hikmah behind it...

Fasobrun jameel...

Saturday, February 18, 2006

Obstetric and Gynaecology (ONG)


In short.. I'm scared to the maxxxxx!!!! Today's my 2nd day...
Delivered 2 babies je sebab was so scared yesterday... hehe. Even the specialist noticed that I looked so scared... plus... I panicked!!!! Isk... cemana la doktor niiii... hehe

Anyways, thanks to my patients who reallyu cooperate well.. Yang kelakar, when the patient pushed, I also pushed... lawak giler. Nasib baik masa tu takde org. Kalau tak mesti kena gelak.. And also, masa the last push, saya panic, duk jerit sama2 dengan patient. hehe... What an experience la.. ;0

8 more days to tag.. then I will start oncall.. scary la. Hopefully I can manage to learn fast and be clever to treat the patients as maximum as possible...

After seeing the babies.. I want a baby myself... hehe. ;)

To all the new doctors, MBBS... CONGRATULATIONS!!!! :) Tahniah to all (MMMC) doctors who made it in the final exams.. Alhamdulillah... :)
See you in HKL!

Take care. Gotta go. Tadi balik rumah kejap. Tau2, ada raya korban kat rumah. Berasap belakang rumah, barbecue ayam n daging. hehe. Nasib baik balik rumah kalau tak terkilan....makan sekali dgn tokayah tok n cik non.... :)

okes.. gtg. akum

Thursday, February 16, 2006


Met Kak Ila today. Went Alamanda together. Just spent time together, talking... Called Maya yesterday to ask her out also. But she's busy today had to babysit. Then, called Kak Wan today... macam2 dia pokpek. ;)

Missing you guysss... muahs

Wednesday, February 15, 2006

100 more days...

Sebenarnya hati ini cinta kepada-Mu
Sebenarnya diri ini rindu kepada-Mu
Tapi aku tidak mengerti
Mengapa cinta masih tak hadir
Tapi aku tidak mengerti
Mengapa rindu belum berbunga
Sesungguhnya walau kukutip
Semua permata di dasar lautan
Sesungguhnya walau kusiram
Dengan air hujan dari tujuh langitpun
Namun cinta takkan hadir
Namun rindu tak akan berbunga
Kucuba menghulurkan sebuah hadiah kepada-Mu
Tapi mungkin isinya tidak sempurna tiada seri
Kucuba menyiramnya agar tumbuh berbunga
Tapi mungkin kerana airnya tidak sesegar telaga kautsar
Sesungguhnya walau kukutip
Semua permata di dasar lautan
Sesungguhnya walau kusiram
Dengan air hujan dari tujuh langitpun
Namun cinta takkan hadir
Namun rindu tak akan berbunga
Jika tidak mengharap rahmad-MU
Jika tidak menagih simpati
Pada Mu Ya Allah
Tuhan hadiahkanlah kasih-Mu kepadaku
Tuhan kurniakanlah rinduku kepada-Mu
Moga ku tahu syukurku adalah milik-Mu

Ku berharap...berdoa...bertawakkal...Hanya Dia...


Friday, February 10, 2006



Alhamdulillah, syukur kerana masih berada di KL ni kerja siang malam dan diberi kesihatan badan secukupnya... Dah mula terasa badan tak sedap tapi insyaAllah masih boleh bekerja di hospital....

Before I tell you about my 1st operation... ;) Let me tell you about my ONCALL last night. Actually I'm supposed to oncall tonight, but exchanged with my fren coz she was not feeling well yesterday and her father got admitted due to some illness. Kita merancang, tetapi Allah lah yang sebaik2 perancang...

During the day there was not much things to do... however once the night started, one patient was transferred out from another ward and admitted to our ward. He had liver surgery done under our team. So, one new patient in the acute cubicle. (we have patients in the acute cubicle who nees close monitoring). Then, another acute cubicle pakcik had done an operation during the day, yesterday. Suddenly, not so long after he came back to the ward, suddenly, the wife, makcik called "Doktor doktor... Berdarah!" Ya Rabb... when I saw it it was massive bleeding over the left thigh... There was a drain there, tapi leaking from the sides of the drain. So, he had to go back to OT again... Kena cucuk, amik darah dia and then inform OT. Today, he's much better...

The story continues, not only 2 major patients yesterday but one more patient had leaking abdominal aortic aneurysm referred from Muar Hospital, actually referred from Batu Pahat. Dalam bahsa mudahnya, saluran darah aorta bengkak yang sudah pecah. At the same time, he had upper G.I bleed... dia berak hitam and also had few bouts of vomiting fresh blood before coming to KL. We did a scope for him and found no bleeding ulcer in the stomach. Then, in the ward we transfused blood and patient was quite stable...

When I finally finished doing taking blood, tried to insert CVP line which I failed, and consoled him to listen to what I told him... I saw the watch it was 5am!!! My gosh... I didn't sleep the whole night!!!

Later, they called a patiet, acute appendicitis. Actually the patient was from another team, however my medical officer was oncall and he's supposed to do it. So, I asked him whether I can do it... then he said, ok! Hepi giler! :) Mata dah ngantuk dah tapi nak jugak buat coz nak lengkapkan log book Surgery... :)

So... Me as a surgeon... hehe. It was really fun! Patient was 19 years old, the abdomen so thin. Senang nak access the appendix. After removal of the appendix, then suture the peritoneum, muscle layers and skin..... Yey! I did it! With the help of my teacher la.. the medical officer. He guided me how to do it and it was really exciting. Takde rasa ketar2 tangan... Confident jerk... :) Alhamdulillah. Wished to do it again...;) InsyaAllah. Started to do at 6am and finished the op at 6:40am.

When I came back to the ward, patient leaking AAA was stable however there were few things I ordered not done. So, kelam kabut sebab habis buat buat appendix tadi pukul 6:40am. Terkejar2 solat Subuh and then, tried to do as much as possible before the patient is call up to OT for emergency operation... Finally all things done. Informed the Anaesthetist and OT. So, I did rounds at my cubicle. My fren buat rounds kat acute cubicle yang ada pakcik leaking AAA. She tried to set a jarum to that pakcik also and she said patient was talking so much... Suddenly, that cubicle jadi kelam kabut... that pakcik collapse! :( He was vomiting blood. So, we tried to resuscitate him, did CPR nearly 1 hour and pulse was present... but Allah lebih sayangkan pakcik.. Innalillahi wainna Ilalihi raji'uun. Semuga makcik tabah dan sabar menghadapi ujian ini... Sedih la... :( Masa salam makcik, rasa nak peluk je makcik... (susah nak jadi doktor ni sebab kita ni seorang yg cepat sedih.) Harap makcik n pakcik ampunkan saya sekiranya saya terkasar bahasa dalam kelam kabut semalam... :(

When we were busy there, suddenly, my fren, another houseman called one of the specialist telling that one of the patient was bleeding!!! YA RABB! What a vascular oncall for me yesterday and today... So, my fren had to settle with taking the blood and also run for the blood for grouping for transfusion. I had to be by the side of the patient and compress over the spurting blood vessel to stop the bleeding. I stayed with the uncle nearly 1 hour la when finally they called the patient to enter the OT....

Only then, around 10am, I get the chance to go and bath....

Petang tadi, masa nak balik rumah, biasalah, oncall tak cukup tidur, so ngantuk tahap gaban! hehe. So, lepas je sampai kat satu tol, ada la kawasan nak park, park kat situ and then I slept! Nearly for 1/2 hour!!! Then, when I woke up around 6pm, tengok2, gate kat bangunan tu tertutup. Mak aiii... takut sangat masa tu sebab macam mana nak keluar... takkan kena sambung tidor kat Tol tu sampai pagi esoknya??? Suddenly, gate tu terbuka automatically... Cari gak orang yang tolong bukakkan, tak nampak pun... ke Allah yang tolong bukakkan ek? :) Alhamdulillah. hehe

Satu pengalaman
Suka dan duka
Dalam satu malam dan satu hari
Kita merancang
Tetapi Allah sebaik2 perancang

p/s: Kalau tak faham my language, sorry la. Tak gheti nak translate la. hehe. Tapi kalau nak tau, just ask.. ;)

Wednesday, February 08, 2006



Alhamdulillah, as stated in the title... yup finally, I graduated from Masjid Negeri Shah Alam for my 2 days Kursus Pra Perkahwinan. It was very good... :) Went there not with my future husband but with one of my fren, not to mention her name here. hehe.

Lulus Kursus
Anyways, the day before going for the 2 days kursus, on Friday, I was oncall. So, masa kursus tu ngantuk2 la jugak. Nasib baik, the first ceramah ustaz dia kelakar orelse I would have sleep off. The second ceramah memang I wasn't in the masjid... hehe. Dahla penceramah tu nampak kita duk ngantuk2. Ntah la.. dah tak boleh nak tahan... 2nd day pulak, not so bad la. Seronok dapat ceramah2 yang kelakar2 tu. Tapi ada gak yang blue... malu betoi! Semua ceramah ok... cumanya, sepatutnya ustaz2 tu janganla menggalakkan couple2 yang belum kawin tu ber"abang"..."sayang". :) yelah time ni lah pun kita nak berdakwah! ;)

Teman Hidup
Yang part paling best... adala orang tu.. dia kena tanya banyak kali dengan penceramah2. Memang dah tak lama la tu... yang memang nak gelak...bila ditanya, "Kenapa nak bernikah? Apa matlamat pernikahan?" Orang tu dgn penuh yakin menjawab, "Jadi teman hidup." Fualamak!! Cayalah orang tu! hehe. Jangan marah ye orang tu... ;) K k.. jawapan2 soalan2 yang lain aku tak citer la. ;)

After that we went to meet Amaani Syaheeda. :) COmeYnyeeee anak sedara makcik el ni ha. Tapi dia tak kenal dengan makcik el. Asyik rapit dengan mama dia aje. :) Segan jugak dengan abu Amaani sebabnya, dia tau ah kita pi kursus kawin. hehe. Citer dengan Ummu Amaani, tak ingat dunia. Yelah, dengan kawan2 yang lain sekali jumpa. Kawan2 tadika.. Kepoh ribut kat rumah Amaani. hehe. :) Apa2pun, it was a nice meeting. Seronok dapat jumpa kawan2. Makcik el demam hari tu tak sempat nak dukung Amaani. Takut berjangkit pulak.. :)

To complete housemanship dekat HKL, I have to attend latihan dekat Pusat Darah Negara and Patologi. It takes 2 days. Tadi pi PDN. It was a very good trip la. Yelah, tak jumpa patient yang sakit2 tu. hehe. We discussed about blood transfusion, blood grouping and crossmatching. Best la. :)

Ending 1st Posting
InsyaAllah, next week will be my last week in Surgical. Will go to ONG next week. Takut laaaa... Yelah kan, nak beranak2kan orang... Hmmm... tadi duk bacala paper pasal bayi terpoting kaki tu. Hmm, bila tengok gambar, rasanya memang baby tu ada congenital anomalies. However, not sure la wether did the doctor tell the mother about it. Kalau tak bgtau maybe la teh mother rasa terkejut tengok anak macam tu... Kaki terpotong sebab manusia yang potongkan, won't look so nice as Allah yang potongkan kaki dia. Dalam gambar tengok, kaki dia memang kudung... WALLAHUA'LAM. We'll see what the hospital will say la...

To Mardhiah...
:) Sabar jelah kak Mar. Tak payah konpius2. hehe. InsyaAllah when the right time comes, mesti la el bgtau kat sini. Ada rezeki, insyaAllah. :)

Things may not be the same as you think...
Alhamdulillah, it turned out fine...
I'm glad I did the right thing... ;)
Thank you very much

Wednesday, February 01, 2006



Badan kurang sihat, tapi Alhamdulillah, masih boleh bekerja. Semalam oncall, memang penat sikit je.. berapa kali tertidor dalam bilik oncall. Tapi, Alhamdulillah, patient stable, except for one. Tu pun not in my ward. Bleeding femoral graft, went into OT for exploration and post op in GICU. Hopefully that uncle will be fine...

Anyways, just now went to Melaka Southern Hospital. My Tok Ngah, Puksu Abuhandzalah n Lilsis Lukluk's father admitted there. Actually was in Muar Hospital, but then transferred to Southern. I hope and pray that he will recover soon... insyaAllah.. Ameen. Get to see my "sepupu" Handzalah dah besar... dah pandai jalan2. :) Dah jadi anak omputih dah dia.. ;)

"Mind your own self"
I don't like to use this sentence to people, however, I guess I can use it in the blog. :) Last week, I was hurted for some reason. Memang sedih tahap gaban! :( Apa2pun, terasa sangat2 tu sebab ada orang yang sibuk jaga tepi kain orang... If that person mind his/her own self, things wouldn't be so bad. It made me become more sad today when I get to know, I was not the only one who is hurt but it involves few others who I really care...

Sometimes, it's easy to say it but not easy to handle it. As if we are not doing anything... As if we are so bad... But somehow somebody does not really understand.. Ntah la. Susah nak luahkan. Tapi setakat yang diluahkan ni, harap ada orang akan amik iktibar...

Please don't let yourself involved in someone else's life... eventhough you may think that you may be trying to help and find the best solution. Sometimes, you may make things worse than it already is... It's ok if it involves only one person, but it is really bad if it involves more than one person....


I hope our hearts will be healed with zikrullah...
Bawa banyak bersabar ye....
Allah Mahu Menguji kita
Banyakkan doa....

Monday, January 30, 2006



I really missed writing stuffs in my small blog. :) Today, just came back from HKL, postcall... Actually decided to write sumthing the last 2 days, however didn't have enuff time bcoz went to kenduri kawin and also, belanja my family dinner with my oncall claims. :)

Been working in HKl for almost 3 months.. Really affect my heart so much. Maybe that's why I become a doctor... I'm not sure... But, being with patients just make me feel good... Maybe? I make them as my own makcik, pakcik, adik2... Life had been quite hectic working in HKL. However, it's not so bad.. hehe (If only you know.. ;) )

Yesterday, had 2nd patient, Chinese, passed away in front of my eyes. I couldn't bear my tears... Went to toilet and cried myself. It was really heartbreaking bcoz I knew the uncle so well. He had diabetes and also foot ulcer. He went for a bypass, but then the foot was not healing still... We tried to save his foot, did so many wound debridements(clean the wound) in OT(operation theatre) and also in the ward.

However, last week, he had hematuria(blood in urine).. and 2 days back he had PR bleeding(bleeding while passing motions).. Already showed signs of septicemia.. Used to have fun talking malay with him.. We always borak2 together... and finally he passed away in front of me... Tried to resus him.. but when I feel the pulse, it was no palpable pulse... when I listened to his heart, there was no more heart beat.. When I listened to the breath sound, there was no more breathing.. Finally when the MO came, he pronounced him dead at 12:10am, 30/1/2006, 2nd day Chinese New Year. Cause of death: Septicaemia *tearing already...* :(

Read Dr Max's entry... sad again. :(

Maafkan diriku.. Aku tak bermaksud untuk membuatkan kau bersedih... Tapi, hakikatnya, kita akan kembali kepadaNya, tetapi tidak tahu bila...


Terima kasih kepada pengunjung setia...


Kalian dapat rasakan
Akan apa yang kurasai
Mungkin aku tak pandai untuk merahsiakannya
Dari bacaan hati kalian
Kerana apa yang kutulis disini
Datang dari hatiku jua...


Mungkin benar sangkaan-sangkaan kalian
Yang ku cuba untuk menafikan
Bukan aku sengaja
Tunggulah saat dan waktunya
Pasti akan kuberitahu
Pada kalian yang amat memahami isi hatiku
Walaupun belum pernah bersua muka


Sunday, January 22, 2006



Bak kata kak wan, dah bersawang dah blog. hehe. Betul la tu... tapi asyik tak sempat nak menaip. EOD calls until end of this month. Dah banyak kali sgt amik cuti... kan dah! :P

So happy for my sedara... InsyaAllah getting married on my birthday next month! Yehoo.. Kenduri kawin sekali dgn kenduri besday! Aci la tu... hehe

"Bila dah bertemu jodoh... segalanya dipermudahkan. InsyaAllah. Yang penting, banyakkan doa n tawakkal... Semuga diredhaiNya... "

(hmm.. mcm terkena la pulak... :( uhuk2)

wokes...Selamat pulang jemaah HAJI! :)