JANGANLAH SEDIH

Assalamualaikum,

It had been long since I last updated my blog... Well, today, as usual, my husband not around, so, it's time for me to blog... :)

BABY CALIPH
Alhamdulillah, today is Baby's Caliph 30 weeks old in my tummy... Baby Caliph moving while I'm typing... Syyy sayang... Ummi nak tulis blog ni sayang! ;) Anyways, I still have on and off pain over my tummy.. Well, doing work as houseman at Medical ward... It is really heavy for me to do, need a lot of walking and standing! Both my legs aching whenever I came back from work. Usually I came back around 6pm or 7pm. Started working in the ward at 0730AM in the morning! My tummy aches whenever the baby moves and the head going down on my suprapubic area... But, Alhamdulillah, no more premature contractions. Hopefully and doa always so that Baby Caliph will be safely delievered by term.. InsyaAllah 37 weeks... :) Ummi tak sabar nak jumpa Baby Caliph yang terlalu aktif ni! Sakit perut Ummi! hehe.

MEDICAL OFFICER
I started to do my 5th posting at Medical 1 month back. But, I had to go to Kursus Induksi for 2 weeks after I tagged for 3 days. When I came back from Induksi, I had to do oncall as houseman(HO). After I oncall, I was admitted to the O & G due to premature contraction. Then holiday for 1 week. Then, I oncall again and then, I went to meet the specialist medical because they were telling me that I had to do job as medical officer(MO). But, then, when I met the specialists, they asked me to still do HO job for 2 weeks, and then, tag as HO for 2 weeks after that...

Suddenly, today, the medical officers were telling me that I have to start my MO oncall by this Saturday... I was so sad!!! I couldn't holdmy tears anymore... My eyes were already warm by that time. But, still holding on not to cry in front of the HOs and patients in ward. Actually, my husband gave me a call and wanted to tell me the same news... Finally, while I was helping another HO to do a procedure in the ward, my husband came and told me the whole story. The same story... Before my husband came, I went to Solat Asar... When I entered the room, I felt something awkward...

I FORGOT TO SOLAT ZUHUR!!!! ASTAGHFIRULLAHAL'AZIM!!! No wonder, Allah gave me such bad news for my BIG DOSA!!!

(But I was really busy in the ward that time.. I wanted to pray Zuhr at around 2pm, but there were so many people in the room praying. So, I continue doing ward works... And then, the MO came and do rounds. It just happened I was free during that time... So, I did rounds with the MOs until 5pm!!)

Please Forgive Me, YA ALLAH!!!

My husband sent me to the house eventhough he's oncall today... He was worried about me. He kept on telling me not to cry and Solat Hajat. He already planned that he will teach me starting tomorrow to see patients and cases in the wards and do a fast learning... I just kept quiet. I was still heartbroken, I guess...

So, I Solat Maghrib and Solat Isya'. After that I Solat Taubat and Solat Hajat and asked for Allah's forgiveness for my BIG DOSA!!! Was really crying away.... Minutes after that, my husband called and told me that he called the MO in charge of me. So, he said that actually the MO already planned to put me oncall as MO this Saturday, but, the specialists didn't want me to be oncall as MO yet...

Alhamdulillah!!! Syukur Ya Allah!!!

I know I did a very BIG MISTAKE, a BIG DOSA... Forgotten to Solat Zuhur...

But, syukur ya Allah for "hukum"ing me and at the same time reminding me to seek forgiveness from you... ASTAGHFIRULLAHAL'AZIM...

I'm not the best servant to YOU... But thank you Allah for such care and love that You had given me all these while... Thank You So Much Ya Allah for loving me...and my baby...

Thank you Abang for your support, love and care... :) May Allah make it easy and cool oncall for you tonight... Ameen...