Assalamualaikum...
As the title of my blog mentioned... I just discharged from Antenatal Ward, Hospital Raja Perempuan Zainab II, Kota Bharu (HRPZII). I was admitted there yesterday. I was well when I started off the day by going to the hospital to work. For this week, I was supposed to be in charge in Ward 15, a passive ward, full of patients with HIV, Tuberculosis, Diabetic Control and Renal failures on regular hemodialysis basis. Not a busy ward... Alhamdulillah. Early morning, I went to join the talk on medicolegal. Then, I did round in the ward for 1 hour. After that, I went to the Clinic to see patient to be seen as outpatients.
After seeing 2nd patient, I felt my tummy growling! Felt like having severe diarrhea. It was true when I went to the toilet and I was purging watery stools!!! 3 days prior to yesterday, last Sunday I already had similar symptoms. But it was more of food poisoning where I vomited and had loose stools. Emcee 1 day while my husband was oncall... Anyways, I was in the toilet for almost 2 hours yesterday. Purging diarrhea and watery stools until feeling nothing to come out! But the tummy was so painful!!! I couldn't walk properly for having such painful colicky abdomen...
I sms my husband and told him about my problem. He asked me to come out from the toilet. He was oncall again yesterday. When he saw me, he said we better go to the Emergency and get another emcee. We went to Emergency, luckily it was in front and across the road from the Clinic. When I reached there, the MA asked me to go to the Yellow Zone. The HOD of Emergency department was there! Argghh... malunye! He asked what was wrong and I told him. He asked whether I was having any contraction pain??? Well, I didn't think of that but more concerned about my loose stools!! Then, when I was examined, he said that I was having contraction pain! What??? Nak beranak dah ke aku??? Baru 35 minggu!!!
My husband set line for me and then, the HOD arranged for an ambulance to send me to the labour room. It was the first time I was a patient and rode in an ambulance! hehe. I was examined by my juniors colleague and told me that my os was closed but since I was having contraction, they admitted me to the labor room, the same room I last admitted... and I was on regular painkiller injections which made me sleep the whole time. Initially I was having contraction pain 2 in every 10 minutes. Later on yesterday night, the pain reduced to 1 in 10 minutes and finally, irregular contractions. My baby was well and active all the time in the ward, Alhamdulillah.
They said that since I had already completed Dexamethasone injection (to mature my baby's lungs) during my last admission and my baby's estimated weight was 2.6kg during my last ultrasound scan, they allowed labour if it was progressing! I was sleepy after given the injections but still prayed and hoped may Allah give me what's best for me and my baby... I was checking whether I had other signs of labour but since the contraction was reducing, I was not worried so much!
Hmmm, my Baby Caliph is really playful said my aunt! :) Yesterday I was in the labour room by myself. My husband was oncall. He wanted to be there with me, but we had no choice. Both of us were sad... but Allah knew what was bst for us both. Alhamdulillah, the nurses were very nice to me. I was happy in the labour room not like last time. :) Syukur, Alhamdulillah, my husband's oncall last night was not so bad. Yupp... we wanted to be together, but we knew we just couldn't. :)
Abang, janganlah rasa bersalah lagi. Cukuplah dengan kata-kata Abang yang cukup membuatkan hati ini sungguh pilu dan terharu. "Kita asyik tolong patients, jaga patients, rawat patients, macam apa je, tapi bila bini sakit, kita nak jaga pun tak boleh". Bukan kita yang sengaja meminta semua benda ini berlaku semalam waktu Abang oncall. Tapi, syukurlah Allah sayangkan kita. Takde apa yang berlaku semalam pada kita berdua dan hari ini dah pun boleh keluar wad.:)
Ya Allah!
Kau letakkanku berada di antara 2 orang yang amat ku kasihi
Mereka berdua inginkan yang terbaik untukku
Mereka berdua ingin berada di sampingku ketika ku melahirkan anak dalam kandungan ini
Tunjukkanlah kepadaku apa yang harus ku lakukan
Tunjukkanlah kepada mereka berdua bahawa aku amat menyayangi mereka berdua yang amat sangat
Dan pastinya, ku inginkan mereka berdua di sampingku di saat-saat getir ketika melahirkan
Tapi, sekiranya salah seorang daripada mereka tiada di sampingku
Tunjukkanlah kepadanya bahawa kasihku, cintaku, sayangku padanya takkan pudar sama sekali
Kasih, cinta dan sayang yang telah Kau campakkan dalam hati ini
Biarlah ia bersemadi dalam hati, darah, dagingku selamanya hingga bertemu denganMu...
Ameen.
Friday, May 18, 2007
Saturday, May 12, 2007
THIRD TRIMESTER
Assalamualaikum,
BABY CALIPH
Alhamdulillah, Baby Caliph is going to be 35 weeks this Monday. I'm supposed to go for my ANC this Monday but not sure whether I can excuse myself. Hopefully, should be a problem...Baby Caliph is so active and making wavy movements on my tummy. Usually will wake Ummi up in the morning by pressing on the bladder... and before sleeping, will make Ummi have supper and doing somersaults when Ummi so tired and sleepy. hehe. Anak Ummi ni kecik-kecik lagi dah nakal ni! ;) Can't wait for 37 completed weeks. Hopefully by that time, Baby Caliph will pop out! Praying that Ayah will be next to Ummi when Baby Caliph pops out! Ameen....
DR NIDA
Syafakillah to our blogger, Dr. Nida... She's admitted to HRPZII last 3 days because of having viral fever with thrombocytopenia. Low platelet. Suspected dengue from Indonesia because she's still studying in Jogjakarta. But, the dengue serology came out negative. Before yesterday she looks ill but yesterday, looks like she's improving. Her husband is my husband's best friend. He's worries made my husband worried too and he told me many times that if I was to be admitted, he'll be worried also because... "Bini sakit tau, mesti lah risau!" hehe. Yelah abang! ;) Hopefully Dr. Nida will recover soon... Ameen.
HUSNU DZON
That day I was so pissed off when one of the MO told me that I'm supposed to tag for 2 weeks so that when I come back from confinement I can start my MO oncall. Later, another MO told me that I'm supposed to hold the pager the next day and answer all the referrals, either from the districts or from other departments. I was quite sad because, how come all these MOs know about my status and I don't even know it from my leader. Why did he go and tell others instead of telling me myself what I'm supposed to do? WALLAHUA'LAM.
Later that night, talked to Mak over the phone regarding the matter and Mak was giving lectures and tazkirah to me... :( Well, she said I should have asked myself regarding the matter above instead of hearing others what to do and waiting for the leader to tell me. She said that I should stop assuming negative things and try to get the right facts from the superior. I should husnu dzon with the people around me... Hmmm.. Mak knows my weakness and tackled it nicely... :) Thanks Mak. InsyaAllah, will get a hold on one of my superior and ask regarding my status and to apply early holidays to deliver the baby this June... Rabbisyrahli sodri wayassirli amri whalul uqdatanminlisaani yafqahu qauli...
She also reminded me about going to district... She said that I should be in the hospital and stays at medical longer so that I can gain experience, confidence and competent in doing my work later. It's true... Guess will be staying in KB longer and have Baby Caliph growing at the quarters first before moving out to district... Hmmm.... "Allah will repay your suffers and your good deeds in helping the patients to get better in other ways..."
I think that's all to update... My husband's working half day today... :(
BABY CALIPH
Alhamdulillah, Baby Caliph is going to be 35 weeks this Monday. I'm supposed to go for my ANC this Monday but not sure whether I can excuse myself. Hopefully, should be a problem...Baby Caliph is so active and making wavy movements on my tummy. Usually will wake Ummi up in the morning by pressing on the bladder... and before sleeping, will make Ummi have supper and doing somersaults when Ummi so tired and sleepy. hehe. Anak Ummi ni kecik-kecik lagi dah nakal ni! ;) Can't wait for 37 completed weeks. Hopefully by that time, Baby Caliph will pop out! Praying that Ayah will be next to Ummi when Baby Caliph pops out! Ameen....
DR NIDA
Syafakillah to our blogger, Dr. Nida... She's admitted to HRPZII last 3 days because of having viral fever with thrombocytopenia. Low platelet. Suspected dengue from Indonesia because she's still studying in Jogjakarta. But, the dengue serology came out negative. Before yesterday she looks ill but yesterday, looks like she's improving. Her husband is my husband's best friend. He's worries made my husband worried too and he told me many times that if I was to be admitted, he'll be worried also because... "Bini sakit tau, mesti lah risau!" hehe. Yelah abang! ;) Hopefully Dr. Nida will recover soon... Ameen.
HUSNU DZON
That day I was so pissed off when one of the MO told me that I'm supposed to tag for 2 weeks so that when I come back from confinement I can start my MO oncall. Later, another MO told me that I'm supposed to hold the pager the next day and answer all the referrals, either from the districts or from other departments. I was quite sad because, how come all these MOs know about my status and I don't even know it from my leader. Why did he go and tell others instead of telling me myself what I'm supposed to do? WALLAHUA'LAM.
Later that night, talked to Mak over the phone regarding the matter and Mak was giving lectures and tazkirah to me... :( Well, she said I should have asked myself regarding the matter above instead of hearing others what to do and waiting for the leader to tell me. She said that I should stop assuming negative things and try to get the right facts from the superior. I should husnu dzon with the people around me... Hmmm.. Mak knows my weakness and tackled it nicely... :) Thanks Mak. InsyaAllah, will get a hold on one of my superior and ask regarding my status and to apply early holidays to deliver the baby this June... Rabbisyrahli sodri wayassirli amri whalul uqdatanminlisaani yafqahu qauli...
She also reminded me about going to district... She said that I should be in the hospital and stays at medical longer so that I can gain experience, confidence and competent in doing my work later. It's true... Guess will be staying in KB longer and have Baby Caliph growing at the quarters first before moving out to district... Hmmm.... "Allah will repay your suffers and your good deeds in helping the patients to get better in other ways..."
I think that's all to update... My husband's working half day today... :(
Sunday, May 06, 2007
NEW UPDATES
Assalamualaikum...
It had been long since the last time I updated my blog, eh?? ;) Well, sorry for those waiting for my recent news..
WORKLIFE
Well, was quite busy with work and also adjusting life to my current status as a Medical Officer at Female Ward. Finally, they decided to make me a MO and did HO oncalls. Alhamdulillah, my last oncall had already passed. It was on the 1st May 2007. Syukur it was uneventful and I got to sleep that night on the bed. There were other 3 HO and a MO sleeping inside the room but they gave me and my baby to sleep on the bed. Nasib baik dapat tidur, kalau tak sia-sia aje... ;)
Now, I'm handling half of the female ward which is a very big responsibilty. Being me having such a little knowledge... Scared always as usual! But I guess day by day I just have to learn and if I don't know, I'll just ask for help... May Allah help me to help all the patients... Ameen.
AIR KELAPA PANTAI CAHAYA BULAN
Well, it had been hot for the past few weeks due to Musim Kemarau. Hot really means HOT!!! We'll be sweating day and night because of the weather. So, Abang love to drink Air Kelapa. We went to Pantai Cahaya Bulan just to get ourselves to drink Air Kelapa in the Buah Kelapa. :) Initially my sister in law said that it's not good for the baby, but then, there's another Nenek said that it's good for the baby. Hmm, what I believe is that it's good for the ummi! hehe. On the way to PCB, there were a lot of small stalls selling Jagung Rebus! hehe. So, we didn't miss to buy that also... ;)
CHATS
That day I had the chance to talk through Yahoo Messenger with Raiyan! :) It was quite fun to talk over the computer. hehe. It had been long since I talk to anyone through the phone... Anyways, the next day, got the chance to talk to My Twin pulak! :) Well, with the new technologies around, why not use it for our own sake, right??? :) I did chat with K. Wanda, tapi not through the mic and speaker but had to type on the yahoo messenger. Well, nice to story-mory with you guys! Hope we can do it again at another time, insyaAllah....
BLOG READER
Guess what??? Yesterday, I bumped into one of my blog reader, K. Lia. Well, if you are reading this K. Lia, nice to meet you yesterday! :) My husband and I went to Noodle Station to eat dinner. Actually we wanted to have dinner elsewhere, either Ayamas/KB Mall/Mamak Stall/gerai tepi jalan/Hayaki, but we ended up at Noodle Station. Well, hikmah behind it was that I got to make an ukhuwah fillah with K. Lia... hehe. The food there was not nice!!! Tapi, rezeki nak jumpa my Blog Reader... ;) She just called me, "Dr Nour El Huda?" while I was on my way out! Terkezuuuuutttt!!! Patient mana pulak ni??? Do I happen to know you??? hehehe. K. Lia happened to read my blog from blog JurnalAlam. But she's not a blogger herself! :) Well, good luck in your phD!!! :)
BABY CALIPH
Hmmm... If you see the calender, Baby Caliph is already 33 weeks. Going to turn 34 weeks tomorrow! Just 6 weeks more to go!!! What do you know??? I'll be getting a baby soon! Alhamdulillah. :D Hopefully everything will turn out fine and both of us will be safe through the journey of labour and delivery.... Ameen! Make du'a for us yeah???
Masam-Masam Manis
Sudah beberapa minggu, aku sudah mula membaca novel Ayat-Ayat Cinta. Tapi atas desakan masa, aku tidak dapat habis membaca novel tersebut sekaligus. Semalam, bacaanku sudah sampai saat Fahri dan Aisya menjadi suami isteri. Aku teringat saat aku dan suamiku disatukan. Rasanya, cerita kami lebih kurang seperti pasangan dalam novel tersebut! hehe. Abang menafikan dan menyatakan, aku sudah jadi jiwang selepas membaca novel tersebut. Dia bergurau akan melarang aku membeli buku-buku jiwang selepas ini... Alaa.. Apa salahnya berjiwang dengan suami??? hehe. Ye kan???
Selepas aku solat berjemaah Isya' dengan suamiku, aku teringat saat Abang meluahkan perasaannya mahu berada di sampingku semasa aku melahirkan anak kami yang sulung nanti. Emakku pula berkehendak supaya aku pulang ke kampung halaman dan melahirkan anak kami di sana. Sedih, terharu dan pilu rasanya bila mendengar Abang menyatakan hasratnya mahu memastikan proses bersalinku berjalan dengan lancar dan Abang mahu mengazankan anaknya sendiri. Isteri mana yang tak luruh jiwanya bila mendengar suaminya berkata begitu??? :(
Sekiranya aku boleh jangkakan bila aku akan bersalin, sekehendakku mahu melahirkan anak kami bersama dengan suamiku, samada di KL atau di Kelantan, asalkan suamiku ada... Tapi, hanya Dia yang Maha Mengetahui.... Semuga Allah memberikan jalan yang terbaik untukku, anakku dan suamiku... Ameen... Doakan kami....
Dah jiwang sebab suami oncall lah! :p
It had been long since the last time I updated my blog, eh?? ;) Well, sorry for those waiting for my recent news..
WORKLIFE
Well, was quite busy with work and also adjusting life to my current status as a Medical Officer at Female Ward. Finally, they decided to make me a MO and did HO oncalls. Alhamdulillah, my last oncall had already passed. It was on the 1st May 2007. Syukur it was uneventful and I got to sleep that night on the bed. There were other 3 HO and a MO sleeping inside the room but they gave me and my baby to sleep on the bed. Nasib baik dapat tidur, kalau tak sia-sia aje... ;)
Now, I'm handling half of the female ward which is a very big responsibilty. Being me having such a little knowledge... Scared always as usual! But I guess day by day I just have to learn and if I don't know, I'll just ask for help... May Allah help me to help all the patients... Ameen.
AIR KELAPA PANTAI CAHAYA BULAN
Well, it had been hot for the past few weeks due to Musim Kemarau. Hot really means HOT!!! We'll be sweating day and night because of the weather. So, Abang love to drink Air Kelapa. We went to Pantai Cahaya Bulan just to get ourselves to drink Air Kelapa in the Buah Kelapa. :) Initially my sister in law said that it's not good for the baby, but then, there's another Nenek said that it's good for the baby. Hmm, what I believe is that it's good for the ummi! hehe. On the way to PCB, there were a lot of small stalls selling Jagung Rebus! hehe. So, we didn't miss to buy that also... ;)
CHATS
That day I had the chance to talk through Yahoo Messenger with Raiyan! :) It was quite fun to talk over the computer. hehe. It had been long since I talk to anyone through the phone... Anyways, the next day, got the chance to talk to My Twin pulak! :) Well, with the new technologies around, why not use it for our own sake, right??? :) I did chat with K. Wanda, tapi not through the mic and speaker but had to type on the yahoo messenger. Well, nice to story-mory with you guys! Hope we can do it again at another time, insyaAllah....
BLOG READER
Guess what??? Yesterday, I bumped into one of my blog reader, K. Lia. Well, if you are reading this K. Lia, nice to meet you yesterday! :) My husband and I went to Noodle Station to eat dinner. Actually we wanted to have dinner elsewhere, either Ayamas/KB Mall/Mamak Stall/gerai tepi jalan/Hayaki, but we ended up at Noodle Station. Well, hikmah behind it was that I got to make an ukhuwah fillah with K. Lia... hehe. The food there was not nice!!! Tapi, rezeki nak jumpa my Blog Reader... ;) She just called me, "Dr Nour El Huda?" while I was on my way out! Terkezuuuuutttt!!! Patient mana pulak ni??? Do I happen to know you??? hehehe. K. Lia happened to read my blog from blog JurnalAlam. But she's not a blogger herself! :) Well, good luck in your phD!!! :)
BABY CALIPH
Hmmm... If you see the calender, Baby Caliph is already 33 weeks. Going to turn 34 weeks tomorrow! Just 6 weeks more to go!!! What do you know??? I'll be getting a baby soon! Alhamdulillah. :D Hopefully everything will turn out fine and both of us will be safe through the journey of labour and delivery.... Ameen! Make du'a for us yeah???
Masam-Masam Manis
Sudah beberapa minggu, aku sudah mula membaca novel Ayat-Ayat Cinta. Tapi atas desakan masa, aku tidak dapat habis membaca novel tersebut sekaligus. Semalam, bacaanku sudah sampai saat Fahri dan Aisya menjadi suami isteri. Aku teringat saat aku dan suamiku disatukan. Rasanya, cerita kami lebih kurang seperti pasangan dalam novel tersebut! hehe. Abang menafikan dan menyatakan, aku sudah jadi jiwang selepas membaca novel tersebut. Dia bergurau akan melarang aku membeli buku-buku jiwang selepas ini... Alaa.. Apa salahnya berjiwang dengan suami??? hehe. Ye kan???
Selepas aku solat berjemaah Isya' dengan suamiku, aku teringat saat Abang meluahkan perasaannya mahu berada di sampingku semasa aku melahirkan anak kami yang sulung nanti. Emakku pula berkehendak supaya aku pulang ke kampung halaman dan melahirkan anak kami di sana. Sedih, terharu dan pilu rasanya bila mendengar Abang menyatakan hasratnya mahu memastikan proses bersalinku berjalan dengan lancar dan Abang mahu mengazankan anaknya sendiri. Isteri mana yang tak luruh jiwanya bila mendengar suaminya berkata begitu??? :(
Sekiranya aku boleh jangkakan bila aku akan bersalin, sekehendakku mahu melahirkan anak kami bersama dengan suamiku, samada di KL atau di Kelantan, asalkan suamiku ada... Tapi, hanya Dia yang Maha Mengetahui.... Semuga Allah memberikan jalan yang terbaik untukku, anakku dan suamiku... Ameen... Doakan kami....
Dah jiwang sebab suami oncall lah! :p
Friday, April 13, 2007
DAYS IN MEDICAL
Assalamualaikum...
RAIYAN
First of all, would like to send GET WELL wish to my best friend, Raiyan, 8 weeks pregnant, and her parents in law met with accident and admitted to 3 different hospitals in Kedah... Raiyan sustained a fracture of the upper limb (tangan). May she'll recover fast and soon and hope her 2nd baby is fine... And as well as her parents in law. I received a sms from my friend, Bash. Bash said that they were in their way to KL for a wedding and suddenly met with a road ccident with a bus. May Allah give them good health and fast recovery... Ameen.
ONCALL MALE WARD
Alhamdulillah, I was oncall at my ward I was supposed to be in charge last Wednesday. It was very busy day during the afternoon. I was half dead by evening... Some more, that afternoon, my colleagues were away. Carrying baby inside the tummy and doing the heavy work as a HO is quite difficult for me, but slowly I managed to finish the works. Despite of so many chores to be done, I didn't forget to stop to pray... But I forgot to eat.. :) Anyways, by that evening, I can't help it. I needed to eat something. Poor thing for my growing baby... So, I went to eat the oncall food. Alhamdulillah, later that night, it was not so busy... 3 admissions and nearing the morning, one of the patients who just admitted passed away. The mother did not want active resuscitation and request for the son to passed away in the usual way... While consoling the mother, I found myself tearing inside me...
HANDLING THE WARD ALONE WITH BABY CALIPH
The next day, I was the only HO handling the ward because my 2 colleagues had to go for Infectious Control Course. So, I had to do round alone.. Luckily my MO came early and we did the round together. We finished quite early. Alhamdulillah, were not so many chores to be done. During the afternoon, the HO leader came and wanted to help me. I asked her to clerk a case and then help me to cover the ward while I go and eat lunch. After I finished eating and just about to pray Zuhr, I got a call from the ward saying that one of my patients already passed away. So, I just went there and the HO leader already resuscitating the patient. The cardiac monitor showed that there was no chance that the patient can revive back. So, I explained to the wife regarding the patient's condition. She requested not to further do CPR on her husband and let her husband passed away the usual way... So, another heartbreaking for me while explaining to the wife... Seeing her cry and saying that she did not go to lunch because she knew her husband is going to go away made me cry in the heart...
Handling the ward alone with like 20 staffnurses around me made feel so restless. They kept on coming on me and asking me... Until 5pm, I could bare the chaos, but after that, I asked them to ask the oncall people... To work for 36hours straight without a nap made me so tired and my body really aches... Actually I tried to sleep during my oncall, but my baby kept on moving whenevr I was free and lying down. So, I could just close my eyes but not SLEEPING!!!
VIDEO CLIP
I was reading blogs and came across this video clip...
Is Allah reminding me that Death is Near??? With 2 patients passed away and this beautiful tazkirah song Farshy Turab (Dust is my bed)???
BABY CALIPH
Well, now Baby Caliph is good at showing his buttocks and his feet on my tummy! Usually his buttock will be on my left or right side of my belly button. While, his feet will always kicking over my right side of the abdomen. It looks like humps and moving waves on the tummy! :) Baby Caliph also likes to listen to Ummi and Ayah talking. He usually wants to join our conversation. hehe. Can't wait to see Baby Caliph in just 10 weeks time!!!! InsyaAllah... :)
Lastly, Thanks Abang for the massage and bringing me to eat Ayam Percik... :)
RAIYAN
First of all, would like to send GET WELL wish to my best friend, Raiyan, 8 weeks pregnant, and her parents in law met with accident and admitted to 3 different hospitals in Kedah... Raiyan sustained a fracture of the upper limb (tangan). May she'll recover fast and soon and hope her 2nd baby is fine... And as well as her parents in law. I received a sms from my friend, Bash. Bash said that they were in their way to KL for a wedding and suddenly met with a road ccident with a bus. May Allah give them good health and fast recovery... Ameen.
ONCALL MALE WARD
Alhamdulillah, I was oncall at my ward I was supposed to be in charge last Wednesday. It was very busy day during the afternoon. I was half dead by evening... Some more, that afternoon, my colleagues were away. Carrying baby inside the tummy and doing the heavy work as a HO is quite difficult for me, but slowly I managed to finish the works. Despite of so many chores to be done, I didn't forget to stop to pray... But I forgot to eat.. :) Anyways, by that evening, I can't help it. I needed to eat something. Poor thing for my growing baby... So, I went to eat the oncall food. Alhamdulillah, later that night, it was not so busy... 3 admissions and nearing the morning, one of the patients who just admitted passed away. The mother did not want active resuscitation and request for the son to passed away in the usual way... While consoling the mother, I found myself tearing inside me...
HANDLING THE WARD ALONE WITH BABY CALIPH
The next day, I was the only HO handling the ward because my 2 colleagues had to go for Infectious Control Course. So, I had to do round alone.. Luckily my MO came early and we did the round together. We finished quite early. Alhamdulillah, were not so many chores to be done. During the afternoon, the HO leader came and wanted to help me. I asked her to clerk a case and then help me to cover the ward while I go and eat lunch. After I finished eating and just about to pray Zuhr, I got a call from the ward saying that one of my patients already passed away. So, I just went there and the HO leader already resuscitating the patient. The cardiac monitor showed that there was no chance that the patient can revive back. So, I explained to the wife regarding the patient's condition. She requested not to further do CPR on her husband and let her husband passed away the usual way... So, another heartbreaking for me while explaining to the wife... Seeing her cry and saying that she did not go to lunch because she knew her husband is going to go away made me cry in the heart...
Handling the ward alone with like 20 staffnurses around me made feel so restless. They kept on coming on me and asking me... Until 5pm, I could bare the chaos, but after that, I asked them to ask the oncall people... To work for 36hours straight without a nap made me so tired and my body really aches... Actually I tried to sleep during my oncall, but my baby kept on moving whenevr I was free and lying down. So, I could just close my eyes but not SLEEPING!!!
VIDEO CLIP
I was reading blogs and came across this video clip...
Is Allah reminding me that Death is Near??? With 2 patients passed away and this beautiful tazkirah song Farshy Turab (Dust is my bed)???
BABY CALIPH
Well, now Baby Caliph is good at showing his buttocks and his feet on my tummy! Usually his buttock will be on my left or right side of my belly button. While, his feet will always kicking over my right side of the abdomen. It looks like humps and moving waves on the tummy! :) Baby Caliph also likes to listen to Ummi and Ayah talking. He usually wants to join our conversation. hehe. Can't wait to see Baby Caliph in just 10 weeks time!!!! InsyaAllah... :)
Lastly, Thanks Abang for the massage and bringing me to eat Ayam Percik... :)
Monday, April 09, 2007
JANGANLAH SEDIH
Assalamualaikum,
It had been long since I last updated my blog... Well, today, as usual, my husband not around, so, it's time for me to blog... :)
BABY CALIPH
Alhamdulillah, today is Baby's Caliph 30 weeks old in my tummy... Baby Caliph moving while I'm typing... Syyy sayang... Ummi nak tulis blog ni sayang! ;) Anyways, I still have on and off pain over my tummy.. Well, doing work as houseman at Medical ward... It is really heavy for me to do, need a lot of walking and standing! Both my legs aching whenever I came back from work. Usually I came back around 6pm or 7pm. Started working in the ward at 0730AM in the morning! My tummy aches whenever the baby moves and the head going down on my suprapubic area... But, Alhamdulillah, no more premature contractions. Hopefully and doa always so that Baby Caliph will be safely delievered by term.. InsyaAllah 37 weeks... :) Ummi tak sabar nak jumpa Baby Caliph yang terlalu aktif ni! Sakit perut Ummi! hehe.
MEDICAL OFFICER
I started to do my 5th posting at Medical 1 month back. But, I had to go to Kursus Induksi for 2 weeks after I tagged for 3 days. When I came back from Induksi, I had to do oncall as houseman(HO). After I oncall, I was admitted to the O & G due to premature contraction. Then holiday for 1 week. Then, I oncall again and then, I went to meet the specialist medical because they were telling me that I had to do job as medical officer(MO). But, then, when I met the specialists, they asked me to still do HO job for 2 weeks, and then, tag as HO for 2 weeks after that...
Suddenly, today, the medical officers were telling me that I have to start my MO oncall by this Saturday... I was so sad!!! I couldn't holdmy tears anymore... My eyes were already warm by that time. But, still holding on not to cry in front of the HOs and patients in ward. Actually, my husband gave me a call and wanted to tell me the same news... Finally, while I was helping another HO to do a procedure in the ward, my husband came and told me the whole story. The same story... Before my husband came, I went to Solat Asar... When I entered the room, I felt something awkward...
I FORGOT TO SOLAT ZUHUR!!!! ASTAGHFIRULLAHAL'AZIM!!! No wonder, Allah gave me such bad news for my BIG DOSA!!!
(But I was really busy in the ward that time.. I wanted to pray Zuhr at around 2pm, but there were so many people in the room praying. So, I continue doing ward works... And then, the MO came and do rounds. It just happened I was free during that time... So, I did rounds with the MOs until 5pm!!)
Please Forgive Me, YA ALLAH!!!
My husband sent me to the house eventhough he's oncall today... He was worried about me. He kept on telling me not to cry and Solat Hajat. He already planned that he will teach me starting tomorrow to see patients and cases in the wards and do a fast learning... I just kept quiet. I was still heartbroken, I guess...
So, I Solat Maghrib and Solat Isya'. After that I Solat Taubat and Solat Hajat and asked for Allah's forgiveness for my BIG DOSA!!! Was really crying away.... Minutes after that, my husband called and told me that he called the MO in charge of me. So, he said that actually the MO already planned to put me oncall as MO this Saturday, but, the specialists didn't want me to be oncall as MO yet...
Alhamdulillah!!! Syukur Ya Allah!!!
I know I did a very BIG MISTAKE, a BIG DOSA... Forgotten to Solat Zuhur...
But, syukur ya Allah for "hukum"ing me and at the same time reminding me to seek forgiveness from you... ASTAGHFIRULLAHAL'AZIM...
I'm not the best servant to YOU... But thank you Allah for such care and love that You had given me all these while... Thank You So Much Ya Allah for loving me...and my baby...
Thank you Abang for your support, love and care... :) May Allah make it easy and cool oncall for you tonight... Ameen...
It had been long since I last updated my blog... Well, today, as usual, my husband not around, so, it's time for me to blog... :)
BABY CALIPH
Alhamdulillah, today is Baby's Caliph 30 weeks old in my tummy... Baby Caliph moving while I'm typing... Syyy sayang... Ummi nak tulis blog ni sayang! ;) Anyways, I still have on and off pain over my tummy.. Well, doing work as houseman at Medical ward... It is really heavy for me to do, need a lot of walking and standing! Both my legs aching whenever I came back from work. Usually I came back around 6pm or 7pm. Started working in the ward at 0730AM in the morning! My tummy aches whenever the baby moves and the head going down on my suprapubic area... But, Alhamdulillah, no more premature contractions. Hopefully and doa always so that Baby Caliph will be safely delievered by term.. InsyaAllah 37 weeks... :) Ummi tak sabar nak jumpa Baby Caliph yang terlalu aktif ni! Sakit perut Ummi! hehe.
MEDICAL OFFICER
I started to do my 5th posting at Medical 1 month back. But, I had to go to Kursus Induksi for 2 weeks after I tagged for 3 days. When I came back from Induksi, I had to do oncall as houseman(HO). After I oncall, I was admitted to the O & G due to premature contraction. Then holiday for 1 week. Then, I oncall again and then, I went to meet the specialist medical because they were telling me that I had to do job as medical officer(MO). But, then, when I met the specialists, they asked me to still do HO job for 2 weeks, and then, tag as HO for 2 weeks after that...
Suddenly, today, the medical officers were telling me that I have to start my MO oncall by this Saturday... I was so sad!!! I couldn't holdmy tears anymore... My eyes were already warm by that time. But, still holding on not to cry in front of the HOs and patients in ward. Actually, my husband gave me a call and wanted to tell me the same news... Finally, while I was helping another HO to do a procedure in the ward, my husband came and told me the whole story. The same story... Before my husband came, I went to Solat Asar... When I entered the room, I felt something awkward...
I FORGOT TO SOLAT ZUHUR!!!! ASTAGHFIRULLAHAL'AZIM!!! No wonder, Allah gave me such bad news for my BIG DOSA!!!
(But I was really busy in the ward that time.. I wanted to pray Zuhr at around 2pm, but there were so many people in the room praying. So, I continue doing ward works... And then, the MO came and do rounds. It just happened I was free during that time... So, I did rounds with the MOs until 5pm!!)
Please Forgive Me, YA ALLAH!!!
My husband sent me to the house eventhough he's oncall today... He was worried about me. He kept on telling me not to cry and Solat Hajat. He already planned that he will teach me starting tomorrow to see patients and cases in the wards and do a fast learning... I just kept quiet. I was still heartbroken, I guess...
So, I Solat Maghrib and Solat Isya'. After that I Solat Taubat and Solat Hajat and asked for Allah's forgiveness for my BIG DOSA!!! Was really crying away.... Minutes after that, my husband called and told me that he called the MO in charge of me. So, he said that actually the MO already planned to put me oncall as MO this Saturday, but, the specialists didn't want me to be oncall as MO yet...
Alhamdulillah!!! Syukur Ya Allah!!!
I know I did a very BIG MISTAKE, a BIG DOSA... Forgotten to Solat Zuhur...
But, syukur ya Allah for "hukum"ing me and at the same time reminding me to seek forgiveness from you... ASTAGHFIRULLAHAL'AZIM...
I'm not the best servant to YOU... But thank you Allah for such care and love that You had given me all these while... Thank You So Much Ya Allah for loving me...and my baby...
Thank you Abang for your support, love and care... :) May Allah make it easy and cool oncall for you tonight... Ameen...
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