DAYS IN MEDICAL

Assalamualaikum...

RAIYAN
First of all, would like to send GET WELL wish to my best friend, Raiyan, 8 weeks pregnant, and her parents in law met with accident and admitted to 3 different hospitals in Kedah... Raiyan sustained a fracture of the upper limb (tangan). May she'll recover fast and soon and hope her 2nd baby is fine... And as well as her parents in law. I received a sms from my friend, Bash. Bash said that they were in their way to KL for a wedding and suddenly met with a road ccident with a bus. May Allah give them good health and fast recovery... Ameen.

ONCALL MALE WARD
Alhamdulillah, I was oncall at my ward I was supposed to be in charge last Wednesday. It was very busy day during the afternoon. I was half dead by evening... Some more, that afternoon, my colleagues were away. Carrying baby inside the tummy and doing the heavy work as a HO is quite difficult for me, but slowly I managed to finish the works. Despite of so many chores to be done, I didn't forget to stop to pray... But I forgot to eat.. :) Anyways, by that evening, I can't help it. I needed to eat something. Poor thing for my growing baby... So, I went to eat the oncall food. Alhamdulillah, later that night, it was not so busy... 3 admissions and nearing the morning, one of the patients who just admitted passed away. The mother did not want active resuscitation and request for the son to passed away in the usual way... While consoling the mother, I found myself tearing inside me...

HANDLING THE WARD ALONE WITH BABY CALIPH
The next day, I was the only HO handling the ward because my 2 colleagues had to go for Infectious Control Course. So, I had to do round alone.. Luckily my MO came early and we did the round together. We finished quite early. Alhamdulillah, were not so many chores to be done. During the afternoon, the HO leader came and wanted to help me. I asked her to clerk a case and then help me to cover the ward while I go and eat lunch. After I finished eating and just about to pray Zuhr, I got a call from the ward saying that one of my patients already passed away. So, I just went there and the HO leader already resuscitating the patient. The cardiac monitor showed that there was no chance that the patient can revive back. So, I explained to the wife regarding the patient's condition. She requested not to further do CPR on her husband and let her husband passed away the usual way... So, another heartbreaking for me while explaining to the wife... Seeing her cry and saying that she did not go to lunch because she knew her husband is going to go away made me cry in the heart...

Handling the ward alone with like 20 staffnurses around me made feel so restless. They kept on coming on me and asking me... Until 5pm, I could bare the chaos, but after that, I asked them to ask the oncall people... To work for 36hours straight without a nap made me so tired and my body really aches... Actually I tried to sleep during my oncall, but my baby kept on moving whenevr I was free and lying down. So, I could just close my eyes but not SLEEPING!!!

VIDEO CLIP
I was reading blogs and came across this video clip...

Is Allah reminding me that Death is Near??? With 2 patients passed away and this beautiful tazkirah song Farshy Turab (Dust is my bed)???

BABY CALIPH
Well, now Baby Caliph is good at showing his buttocks and his feet on my tummy! Usually his buttock will be on my left or right side of my belly button. While, his feet will always kicking over my right side of the abdomen. It looks like humps and moving waves on the tummy! :) Baby Caliph also likes to listen to Ummi and Ayah talking. He usually wants to join our conversation. hehe. Can't wait to see Baby Caliph in just 10 weeks time!!!! InsyaAllah... :)

Lastly, Thanks Abang for the massage and bringing me to eat Ayam Percik... :)

JANGANLAH SEDIH

Assalamualaikum,

It had been long since I last updated my blog... Well, today, as usual, my husband not around, so, it's time for me to blog... :)

BABY CALIPH
Alhamdulillah, today is Baby's Caliph 30 weeks old in my tummy... Baby Caliph moving while I'm typing... Syyy sayang... Ummi nak tulis blog ni sayang! ;) Anyways, I still have on and off pain over my tummy.. Well, doing work as houseman at Medical ward... It is really heavy for me to do, need a lot of walking and standing! Both my legs aching whenever I came back from work. Usually I came back around 6pm or 7pm. Started working in the ward at 0730AM in the morning! My tummy aches whenever the baby moves and the head going down on my suprapubic area... But, Alhamdulillah, no more premature contractions. Hopefully and doa always so that Baby Caliph will be safely delievered by term.. InsyaAllah 37 weeks... :) Ummi tak sabar nak jumpa Baby Caliph yang terlalu aktif ni! Sakit perut Ummi! hehe.

MEDICAL OFFICER
I started to do my 5th posting at Medical 1 month back. But, I had to go to Kursus Induksi for 2 weeks after I tagged for 3 days. When I came back from Induksi, I had to do oncall as houseman(HO). After I oncall, I was admitted to the O & G due to premature contraction. Then holiday for 1 week. Then, I oncall again and then, I went to meet the specialist medical because they were telling me that I had to do job as medical officer(MO). But, then, when I met the specialists, they asked me to still do HO job for 2 weeks, and then, tag as HO for 2 weeks after that...

Suddenly, today, the medical officers were telling me that I have to start my MO oncall by this Saturday... I was so sad!!! I couldn't holdmy tears anymore... My eyes were already warm by that time. But, still holding on not to cry in front of the HOs and patients in ward. Actually, my husband gave me a call and wanted to tell me the same news... Finally, while I was helping another HO to do a procedure in the ward, my husband came and told me the whole story. The same story... Before my husband came, I went to Solat Asar... When I entered the room, I felt something awkward...

I FORGOT TO SOLAT ZUHUR!!!! ASTAGHFIRULLAHAL'AZIM!!! No wonder, Allah gave me such bad news for my BIG DOSA!!!

(But I was really busy in the ward that time.. I wanted to pray Zuhr at around 2pm, but there were so many people in the room praying. So, I continue doing ward works... And then, the MO came and do rounds. It just happened I was free during that time... So, I did rounds with the MOs until 5pm!!)

Please Forgive Me, YA ALLAH!!!

My husband sent me to the house eventhough he's oncall today... He was worried about me. He kept on telling me not to cry and Solat Hajat. He already planned that he will teach me starting tomorrow to see patients and cases in the wards and do a fast learning... I just kept quiet. I was still heartbroken, I guess...

So, I Solat Maghrib and Solat Isya'. After that I Solat Taubat and Solat Hajat and asked for Allah's forgiveness for my BIG DOSA!!! Was really crying away.... Minutes after that, my husband called and told me that he called the MO in charge of me. So, he said that actually the MO already planned to put me oncall as MO this Saturday, but, the specialists didn't want me to be oncall as MO yet...

Alhamdulillah!!! Syukur Ya Allah!!!

I know I did a very BIG MISTAKE, a BIG DOSA... Forgotten to Solat Zuhur...

But, syukur ya Allah for "hukum"ing me and at the same time reminding me to seek forgiveness from you... ASTAGHFIRULLAHAL'AZIM...

I'm not the best servant to YOU... But thank you Allah for such care and love that You had given me all these while... Thank You So Much Ya Allah for loving me...and my baby...

Thank you Abang for your support, love and care... :) May Allah make it easy and cool oncall for you tonight... Ameen...

EMOTINALLY SICK

Assalamualaikum,

Alhamdulillah, today is my 3rd day of MCs. InsyaAllah, I have just one more day to relax before I start my oncall this Saturday... Actually, I'm scared to start working and to do my oncall. I'm still having on and off pain over my abdomen. Sometimes, feeling some kind of contraction pain, however I just ignored it because... it will just turned out to be Braxton Hicks, my final diagnosis during my admission at the hospital... Nothing can be done...

There were sad events when I was admitted to the hospital, however I just shared it with my husband. So many tears dropped while I was there... But I guess, it's normal for a patient to feel that way??? I'm not sure. But that was the first time that I became a patient. Before this, I was the doctor treating the patients... Anyways, it was not a good experience at all.. Initially I wanted to make complaints and asked for my rights as a patient, as a doctor, as a Malaysian??? But then, the sad events made me realise... maybe Allah wanted to show to me how patients felt when I mistreated them all this while... :(

Well, just pouring out a little here... No offense to anybody. But in any ways, I'm glad that I have my husband to be with me all the time. Alhamdulillah... I'm not sure how am I going to live without him being around... I miss him when he's away to work... Just can't be apart from him even for just a minute. Maybe this is the hikmah and the secret of "Cinta lepas kawin.. ;) " Thank you Allah for this very special gift... :)

My husband dreamt of me during my stay at the hospital...
He dreamt that I went away and missing... He tried to search for me but failed for so many times... He tried to look for me but I was nowhere...
He said he didn't like the dream. :)
Well, I told him that it was just a dream and I'm still here next to him. But, if it's taqdir that we are going to be separated by life and death soon, then, I prayed that we will meet again in the Heaven as husband and wife forever, Ameen. (I'm emotinally sick! :p)

INDUKSI & WARDED

Assalamualaikum...

KURSUS INDUKSI
It had been a long time since I written in this blog. Well, I was away for my Kursus Induksi at Keluang Beach Resort for 2 weeks.. Went there on the 7th March till 22nd March. It was a good experience. Well, apart from the boring lectures, I got to know good friends from Kota Bharu and Kuala Terengganu... We shared a lot of things and since our group was small, we get to know each other quite fast...

BABY INDUKSI
Anyways, hot news from Induksi... We had a baby borned on our 9th day staying at Induksi. My friend from Hosp. Raja Perempuan Zainab II, Kota Bharu went to Induski when she was already term, 37 weeks... At 39 weeks on the dot, she was in labor and delivered baby girl, 3.1kg at HRPZII, Kota Bharu. Alhamdulillah... Another pregnant mother was 38 weeks. Alhamdulillah, she didn't deliver during the kursus. And as for me, Alhamdulillah, Baby Caliph had great time eating hotel foods!!! hehe. And also, Baby Caliph was responding more to the lectures and noise. I could see waves on my tummy when I lie down on the bed... ;)

CHEEZE 1st PRIZE
On the 20th March, we had Malam Kebudayaan. 36 of us were divided into 4 groups. Cheeze, Synergy, Voice, United. I was in Cheeze group. We had Boria Induksi for our performance. We got 1st prize!!! Taraaa! With 2 Mak Buyungs in the group, we made it to be at 1st prize! hehe. Mak buyungs were in charged to play the kompang/gendang/percussion. Whatever you want to call it! hehe. The other group members had to move around and sing the song. By the time they finished singing, they all looked exhausted. But me?? Well, after the performance, I went to take the roasted crabs and eat while watching the other performances. The best part that night was that, there was an event for "Cabutan Bertuah". I was the last one to be called out... and I got a very special prize! That is.... "Quack Quack Duck". Everybody wanted to have my gift... hehe. Some of them got a mask, milk bottle and all sorts of toys for small children. hehe. It was quite fun...

EXAM
On the 22nd March, it was time for our exams. Luckily we got some hints that night so we studied a little, not much. Just hope to pass the exam. This exam is smportant for us for our confirmation as a practitioner in Malaysia... Hope to get it sooon... Ameen.

ONCALL
23rd March, I had to start working and oncall that night. Alhamdulillah, it was a good oncall night. There were 4 admisssions and all patients were stable in the ward. I slept well that night... I asked my husband to teach me how to insert CVP... Peculiar thing happened to me that night was that, there was a patient asking me, "Doktor dah nak dekat bersalin ke?" I was quite touched by that question... I'm only 7 months pregnant and suddenly, why did she come up with that remark? My tummy is not that big...

The next day, we at medical posting had to go round the ward. I took all the blood investigations and did round at my part. Then, helped one of the HO to do peritoneal dialysis. After that, my husband and I went to KB Mall to buy some things. 2 weeks away from home, nothing's at home... We had lunch and then we buy some groceries.. Later on, we bumped into AOWA's saleswoman. She said the same peculiar thing to me that is, "Puan dah nak beranak ke?"

ADMITTED TO HOSPITAL
Well, those 2 people actually were giving me some signs I guess??? On Sunday morning I was having painful stomachache. Feeling nausea, urge to pass stools... and having regular contractions on my tummy. I was prepared to go to work by that time, at 7:30am. But my husband asked me to wait first. Then, the pain became more painful. So, he said not to work and we went to labor room after I had some rest. I was having premature contractions at 27 weeks and 6 days!!!

I was quite ok with that fact... But my husband was more worried than me. :) He had to work that evening but he managed to take Emergency Leave that day. Alhamdulillah, he was there with me in the labor room all the time. I was having contractions 1 in 10 minutes lasting about 5-10 seconds. So, they given me IM injection at my buttocks. Painkiller and also, Dexamethasone, that is a medication to mature my baby's lungs... Baby Caliph was so active.. Alhamdulillah, after 2 days of observation at the labor room, the contractions faded and I was discharged to the ward. At labor room, my husband was sleeping on the floor to accompany me...
Anyways, I'm at home now. 3 days of MC. Hopefully the contractions stops... I talked to so many people, and I got emotionally touched... :) Well, what to do.. I was sick physically and also emotionally.

"Thank you abang for being there when I needed you most!"
And as for Baby Caliph, "Duduk diam diam sikit sayang. Jangan lasak sangat. Umi sakit perut. Kesiankan umi ye..."

Got to go... Still having on and off pain... Baby Caliph nak suruh Umi dia tido sokmo! ;) Doakan kami berdua semua orang... ;)

MY BIRTHDAY PRESENT

Thanks elzahra! :)